Waiting

Still waiting...

Here it is. A month has gone by and still no job. I am still waiting patiently, and only this very morning did it strike that maybe I have been asking the wrong question. Maybe not, "What do you have for me in the future, Lord?", but maybe "What do you have for me to do today?" As hard as it is, I am still seeking Him, and I still have faith. He has promised to never leave nor forsake us, and His Word says He loves to give His children good gifts. In our Monday night Bible study, we are learning about God's love and His faithfulness. I am choosing to live by faith, not feelings.

"Experiencing God" (another small group study that our amazing pastor led) taught me many important lessons that I am able to lean on during the times of confusion and silence. One, was to "focus on the cross, not the circumstances." Also during the study, the story of the potter and the clay was discussed. You know what I'm talking about...the story in the Bible where we (Christians) are referred to as clay and our precious Savior is the Potter who holds us in His hands, molding us and forming us according to what pleases Him. But I never thought about a very important point in that story. In order for the Potter to make the clay into ANYTHING, the clay must remain in His hands. So that is my aim. I am trying diligently (and of course failing at times) to remain in His hands.

As some of you know, Jason and my Daddy (A.K.A. Uncle Tractor) just got back from Honduras. They went to build a church, and I was so wishing to be there with them! However, it gave my mother and I a chance to spend some (overdue) time together for some bonding and R & R. We had planned to go to Tennessee to see my aunt, but she had pneumonia. So, we headed to Destin. What an awesome time we had! Usually when I go to the beach, my days are planned and packed with fun events. This time, my mother and I had a beachfront room, and we spent our time lying in the bed with the door open, listening to the waves crash, and reading or napping the whole time. We got up only to eat, and not even every time for that! We even ordered room service a couple of times. The trip was just what we both needed! I love the beach so much, and as I looked out over the beautiful vastness of the ocean, I could not even grasp how anyone refuses to believe in God. How sad that they are missing out!

Well, enough for now. I hope to catch up on everyone's blog soon. Please keep praying for me and my family. My mother has been sick for a while, and she is having a hard time getting better. She is also trying to quit smoking. Please pray for strength, encouragement, and victory for her, and for her to lean on the Lord. His strength is made perfect in our weakness.