Six Fores

Ella

2010-05-11T02:56:00.000-07:00

Surprise, Surprise...

2010-05-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

Wow, how exciting! Thanks for passin' on the fun and sharin' the love, Ree! (Hope you are feeling better today! :)

Tagged, I'm it...(compliments of Lori @ Foreman Family...)

Three names I go by:

1. Carrie
2. Aunt Dee Dee
3. Carebear (ok, so this one not so much anymore...)

The jobs I have had:

1. cook at youth camp (first real job besides baby-siiting -hated the work, loved the boys:)
2. peanut grader (long hard days but loved it)
3. massage therapist...
AMONG SEVERAL OTHERS...

Three places I have lived:

1. at my parent's house
2. Auburn
3. with my friend, Tara

Three fave drinks:

1. Coca-Cola
2. Milo's sweet tea
3. Caramel Macchiato

Three TV shows I watch:

1. The Office
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Gilmore Girls

Three places I have been:

1. Phoenix
2. Chicago
3. Honduras

Three places I would like to visit:

1. Italy
2. Hawaii
3. London

Three fave retro TV shows:

1. Bewitched
2. I Dream of Jeannie
3. Designing Women

Three fave dishes:
HMMM...this is hard

1. Chicken Lasagna
2. Hashbrown Casserole, Chicken Casserole...
3. Dressing and Dumplings

Three things I am looking forward to:

1. vacation
2. hot days spent in my mother's pool
3. lots of fun weekends with the best friends in the world...

Three bloggy friends I am tagging:
1. Christi @ Watts Family
2. Linda @ Truthful Tidbits
3. Kristin @ Adventures of a Betty Crocker Wannabe

AND AS FOR MY AWESOME AWARD... (from Lori @ Foreman Family)(drumroll please...)

TA-DA! I will be kind and pass it along!

Here are the rules:
1. Put the logo on your blog or within your post.
2. Pass the award onto 10 bloggers.
3. Let the nominees know they have received the award by commenting on their blog.
4. Share the love and link the person who gave you the award.

I choose to bless these guys...

1. Beth @ Colvin Family

2. LeAnne @ Cotton Family

3. DeAnne @ Dubose Family

4. Christi @ Watts Family

5. Mandi @ Morris Family

6. Ginger @ Wilson Family

7. Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

8. Karen @ Gott Joy

9. Kristin @ Adventures of a Betty Crocker Wannabe

10. Cynthia @ Her Quiet Hands in Mine

ENJOY!...

A Memory ...

2010-04-27T19:47:00.000-07:00

So, yes, I know...I blogged about music last week. I can't help it...

As I thought of what to do for today's post, I began to think of memories in general...how they are special little treasures that you get to keep forever...how nobody can take them from you, and, if you're lucky, they last a lifetime.

So...

Instead of one specific memory, I will share with you several special (or ordinary) events that have happened to me over the years, as well as the songs that I will always relate to each little piece of my puzzle...

FOR INSTANCE...
*swinging during recess..."Like a Prayer" Madonna

*first boyfriend in junior high..."I Love the Way You Love Me" John Michael Montgomery

*first love..."I Swear" All For One, "Please Forgive Me" Bryan Adams, and anything by Chicago

*cheerleading days..."Stayin' Alive" The BeeGees

*junior prom..."Imagine" John Lennon

*ahh, spring break..."Champagne Supernova" Oasis

*getting ready with the girls on a Friday night..."Livin' La Vida Loca" Ricky Martin

*the many nights of riding dirt roads..."Louisiana Saturday Night" Mel McDaniel, "You Never Even Call Me by my Name" David Allen Coe

* senior year..."Closing Time" Semisonic, "Don't Look Back in Anger" Oasis, "Time of Your Life" Green Day

*working in the kitchen at the local youth camp during the summer..."A Change Will Do You Good" Cheryl Crow, "Sweet Emotion" Aerosmith

*dancing with the girls..."One Headlight" The Wallflowers

*more boyfriends...anything "Monster Ballads", "Right Where I Need to Be" Gary Allen, "Every Rose Has Its Thorn" Poison, "1979" Smashing Pumpkins...

*days performing in my college chorus group..."Walking on Sunshine" Katrina and the Waves, "Footloose" Kenny Loggins

*visiting my bf at college..."Testify to Love" Avalon, "One of these Day" FFH, "These Thousand Hills" Third Day

*my Granny's funeral..."Sweet, Sweet Spirit" Hymn

*my Great-Grandmother's 90th birthday..."Holy Ground" ? (not technically a hymn?...)

*mine and the hubs song when we were dating..."I don't Want No Scrub" TLC...KIDDING
"Drops of Jupiter" Train

*my wedding..."Shine On Us" Phillips, Craig and Dean

*mission trip to Honduras..."In Christ Alone" Phillips, Craig and Dean

*mission trip to Ecuador..."Carrie" Europe (it was playing in our cab in Ecuador!)
"Praise You in this Storm" Casting Crowns

*the day I found out I was expecting..."Daughter" Pearl Jam, "I Thought I Loved You Then" Brad Paisley, "There Goes My Life" Kenny Chesney, "Sweet Caroline" Neil Diamond, "Daughters" John Mayer (I heard all of these that very day...I kid you not! That's how I knew from the very beginning she would be a girl! :D)

Oh, I could go on forever, I think.

How fun it is to look back and remeber the soundtrack of my life. I encourage you to do the same (just 'cause it's fun...), and I will leave you with a little motivation to help you get started. Clint says it best...

In Light of Recent Controversy...

2010-04-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

WRITTEN WITH MUCH LOVE...

Music

2010-04-23T08:35:00.000-07:00

Excited about my first Aloha Friday! Here goes:

I love music.

Even my earliest memories include a big old record player that I would listen to every Sunday at my great-grandmother's house after dinner.

Music has the ability to move me in a way that nothing else can. It is one of my favorite things in life. Imagine the world without it...how different life would be.

So, I would not dare to attempt to challenge you to name your favorite song. (I could NEVER accomplish such a feat...MAYBE my favorite 100...) Instead I will ask:

***If you could see anyone in concert, dead or living, who would it be and why?***

(*My concert experiences so far, Gary Allen, George Jones, Confederate Railroad, Train, Five for Fighting, Maroon 5, John Mayer, Stone Temple Pilots, Fuel, Disturbed, John Conley, The Glory Revealed Tour (featuring the lead singer of Third Day, one of my favorite groups), and, my all time favorite, Elton John. (Think just him and the piano for 3 hours...amazing.
Wishful thinking: Bryan Adams, Aerosmith, Phil Collins, Vince Gill, George Straight, Dave Matthews Band, Third Day, Mercy Me, and The Police (or Sting...I will take what I can get!)

Birthdays

2010-04-20T19:45:00.000-07:00

Last week was my birthday. I am 30.

"Good-bye, 20 something. Hellooo, sunscreen and night serum."

Overwhelming dread consumed me as the day approached, sure that I would wake to find my body full of arthritis, my vision not so great, and the need for false teeth just around the corner. Instead, I had a wonderful day filled with surprises from my amazing husband, laughter and snuggles from my not-newborn-but-still-new-to-me daughter, and fabulous food and shopping with 2 of my favorite gals on the planet...my mother and mother-in-law. Not to mention, the numerous birthday cards and well wishes sent my way by a multitude of friends and family...

As I reflect on my 30th birthday, I look back and see how special April 15 has been for me over the years. (Besides being the day I began life and all...)

I guess the birthday memories really begin when I was 12. I was in 6th grade, and I got my first special {monthly) gift. I was SO excited. (If I had only known how tired I would be of this special "gift"...of the bloating and the cramping...) I remember my mother bought me a pink ice ring (pink ice...remember that?) to commemorate the occasion. (I'm pretty sure it wound up in my ex-boyfriend's dresser...)

On my 13th birthday, we were playing softball in the park on a bright, sunny day. I threw the ball WAYYY up in the air and the girl beside me yelled, "I got it!" Well, guess who go it...me. Right in the eye. A trip to the ER and a week behind me my eyeball began to turn white again, instead of red from all the blood pooled in it. Yeah, will always remember that one...

The day I turned 14, a girl in my class at school was having a party at her house. (Present day...she is one of my best friends in the whole world, though at the time we hardly knew each other...) I had asked my boyfriend whom I was MADLY in love with to go, and, of course, he accepted. (Junior high parties were all the rage...) Though I have no idea what I was wearing, my boyfriend (the one with the pink ice ring) was dressed to impress in tight black jeans and a blue polo shirt. I thought he was so handsome...before the night was over, he delivered another special birthday gift, my first real kiss. Every girl remembers her first kiss, especially if it was with her special guy on her special day, and I am no exception. I will always look back on that day with warm memories of young love and innocence...

There have been lots of other things, good or bad, that have happened on my birthday. I have an aunt and a cousin that share the same birthday as me, and in 2007, my very special "nephew" Jack was born on my birthday! :) (LOVE YOU JACK, JACK!)...falling where it does, Easter has been on my birthday (several times, actually)...taxes are due (I know, right???)...I've had people that were special to me, relatives or church members, who have passed away on or right before my birthday...and, after years of hope and prayer, I was expecting our daughter, Ella, on my birthday last year (though I didn't know it yet!)

So, when I think about the amazing things that have happened on my birthday, I say "BRING 'EM ON!" (It's better than the alternative!) :D

"All the world is birthday cake, so take a piece, but not too much."- George Harrison

These are a few of my favorite things...

2010-04-20T09:52:00.000-07:00

Ella Charles' First Christmas

2009-12-25T15:08:00.000-08:00

After much prayer and faith, the Lord has blessed us richly and we are home with our baby girl for Christmas! I can not imagine a better way to celebrate Jesus' birth! We are thankful to our Savior for the many reasons that this has been such a wonderful day, and here's a little bit of joy we want to share with you...

Ella Charles with visions of sugarplums...

Little man Jack LOVING his little cousin...

Santa's suit from Grandmama Myra...

'Twas the night before Christmas compliments of her Aunt Ree (Lori)

Cozy and comfy at San's house

Pictures of Ella Charles

2009-12-07T16:45:00.000-08:00

Plenty to post about, but thought new pics. would be appreciated! I plan to post what's been going on with us later, but for now enjoy the view!:)

the family during our wonderful Thanksgiving celebration

Daddy's little dear...

love to watch her sleep...

Thanksgiving night

Jason's mom (Mrs. Myra) holding the baby for the first time

the pretty girl...

my two loves...

Ella and her granny...

PLEASE BE IN PRAYER FOR ELLA. We have experienced a bump in the road. She has had 2 more episodes of heart dips and not breathing while she is eating. We are very discouraged and worried. They assure us she will grow out of it, but it is very scary for your child to stop breathing and go limp while they are in your arms. I feel I could cry for days. The Lord has been with us and done mighty things, and I know He is still here. Please pray for progress for Ella as well as much comfort and encouragement for us. Thank you so much. Will post more good news soon...

God is good all the time

2009-11-30T12:24:00.000-08:00

Since we have been here, there are moments when I feel like time is dragging its feet. Other times, I can not believe how fast things are moving. One of my goals is to stay current on my blog and keep everyone informed of Ella's progress, but another week has gone by and I have plenty to tell. So here are more updates on our sweet girl!

Saturday the 21st was Jason's mother's birthday. She came and spent the afternoon with us, then later that evening, I gave Ella a bath for the first time, which was pretty scary. It was a pretty special day for us. And little did we know, the whole week would be filled with special moments and lots of firsts.

Sunday my Daddy came to visit, and we went out to lunch as a family for the first time in months. We had another day of blessings from the Father, and Sunday night, Jason held his little girl for the first time. I can not even explain to you how I felt when he was looking down at her snuggled in his arms. He is already a great daddy, and I can't wait to watch him grow as a father.

Monday, Ella was 3 lbs. which meant we could finally put some clothes on her! My mother and I had fun picking out something for her to wear for the first time, and then my mama got to hold her for the first time. Another moment I won't forget. My mother already talks about taking Ella to the park and teaching her to cook. My prayer is that Ella has many, many years with her grandparents doing lots of fun things together.

Tuesday, we bottle fed her for the first time, which was a huge step as she had only been feeding through a tube. This is sort of a milestone. We began trying with 2 bottles a day, one per 12 hour shift, so as not to tire her out. As I've mentioned before, it's hard work for a premie to suck, swallow, and breathe at the same time.
As she gets more comfortable with this, they will begin to increase using the bottle for more feedings, and that is one of the main requirements before we go home. We pray that she continues to gain weight and get stronger so, again, maybe we can be home by Christmas.

Wednesday, Mrs. Myra and Grandaddy came to visit again. This time, Jason's mother got to hold her. I have been lucky enough to witness these special moments, and for that I am so thankful. With every moment that passes, every milestone reached, every first...I am so amazed by the Lord's goodness, and my cup runneth over with love and joy for our Father as well as for my baby.

Thursday brought a different kind of Thanksgiving. It was one of the most special days that I can remember. Thanksgiving meant a lot of different things this year, and though we were thankful for so many things, we were not excited about being away from home. But home came to us! My Daddy, Aunt Sandra, Uncle Jack, Lori, Ben, and sweet little man Jack, came to join us in Pensacola (my mother was already here:) and brought one of the biggest and best Thanksgiving dinners I can remember! They rented a hotel room with a kitchen and a table, and we had one of the nicest dinners imaginable! I get teary-eyed just thinking about it. What a special, special family I have! There was one important person missing though, but it sure was helpful that she was only a mile away, and I know she will be with us next year. Even little man Jack said, "I want baby Ella." I can't wait for him and the rest of my family to meet her! Not to mention all our friends...After dinner, Jason and I went for our nightly visit and Ella finished her whole bottle for the first time! What an appropriate end to the day! To the Sansoms and the Foremans you will NEVER EVER be able to understand what Thursday meant to us, and we love you so much. Thank you for everything you have been and everything you have done during this time. You have no idea what having you as our family means.

My Daddy sacrificed a day of hunting, and spent the night Thursday night to stay with Mama Friday for Jason and I to go home for the day. J and I got up about 4:30 Friday morning (yes, there were already people lined up at the mall across the street!), and we went to see Ella before heading to Andalusia. When we got home, I was so happy to see my pets! Me, Tip, Happy, and Maisy sat in the recliner and watched a movie while J worked. (I was instructed not to lift a finger...) It was so great being at home, but it also reminded me of how much we have to do before Ella comes home. I know the Lord will help us work it out. He has taken care of everything else. Friday afternoon, Jason and I went to Lori and Ben's to watch the ballgame. It was nice to be able to relax, but after a quick visit to the Sansoms and the Fores after the game, Jason and I were ready to get back to our little one! When we got back, Mother (after MUCH convincing) and Daddy headed back to Andalusia, and Jason and I spent the rest of the weekend doing a lot of sleeping and spending time with Ella. My mom came back yesterday prepared to spend another week baby-sitting me and Ella. Thank God for wonderful Mamas!:)

Today has brought more changes. I had a checkup this morning, and my bp was 114/68!
Dr. Dobak decreased my meds, and we will see where to go from here. Ella has been doing excellent in holding her own temperature, so today they took her out of the incubator, and put her in a regular crib! She finished another whole bottle again today, which makes the fifth time so far, and we are still praying for her to
continue to progress. God IS good ALL the time, and all the time God is good. Please remember us in your prayers, and I look forward to posting that we will be coming home soon! Until then...

Update on Ella

2009-11-19T20:25:00.000-08:00

Not too long ago, I made a statement on one of my posts about how all the people on facebook do not need to neglect their blog. It has occurred to me just tonight that I am guilty of that very thing. I realized I have not posted anything since I have been out of the hospital! For that I'm sorry, as I tell everyone that they can keep up with our family through my blog! So, here's what's been happening...

Last Friday morning I woke up early expecting to leave the hospital sometime that day. Though I was still in pain, I was feeling better. Jason went to check on Ella before he left for work. He came back by my room and told me that she had had some dips in her heart rate, which is one reason I had to deliver her early. When Jason left I became really upset and cried myself to sleep. When I woke up later in the morning, my mother and I went to see Ella, and her sweet nurse explained that those dips were very common in premies because they sometimes forget to breathe as they are eating or sometimes for no reason at all, and that sometimes they just need to be touched or if it continued, be given caffeine as a stimulant. Wow, did I feel better. I don't think I would have such a hard time if I were given explanations in the beginning. I am learning to ask lots of questions. The nurse assured me Ella was doing great, and they upped her food, as she was tolerating everything well.

Saturday morning came and, for who knows what reason, I found myself hysterical about Ella. Jason once again reminded me of how much Jesus loves Ella, and how He had brought us too far to take away our little girl. I began to think of everything He had brought us through. I began to think of everything that had happened, and how I even went to Ecuador when I was pregnant! I couldn't help but to think about how these things had not been in vain, and how the Lord protected in each situation. I thought of all the events that had taken place in the hospital, and how He had His hand on us the whole time. Then I began to experience such a peace. Later that day, I held her for the first time, and I realized even more than ever that everything we had experienced was worth it. We prayed for years to have this sweet baby girl, and here she was our precious, tiny gift from the Father. The Bible speaks of how the Lord loves to give His children good gifts, and aside from God sending His Son, this is the best gift Jason and I could ever receive.

I woke up Sunday morning praising the Lord for all He had done. Though my heart was light, I thought of our church and how I missed being at home, especially since revival was beginning. Revival had already begun in our lives, however. When you come to the place where you have no choice but to depend on the Lord, it makes you want to love and serve Him more. I pray that we can stay focused on Him as Ella gets stronger and even as we go home. I pray that we remember how much He has done for us, and we change our lives and strive to live accordingly. Once again, Ella had another great day.

Monday was the goal for us; the date we had set for Ella to be born. I thought of how we almost made it, and how we made it further than many thought. Again, we praise God and are thankful for the excellent doctors and nurses surrounding us. They have become like family. I thought of how blessed we were to have such a healthy child from the beginning. I probably mentioned this in my last post, but Ella did not have to have any assistance breathing nor was she on any medications when she was first born, which is not always the case with any newborn, but especially with premies. They did place a tube of oxygen (that had the same flow as room air-what you and I breathe) in her nose just to help her remember to breathe. Monday they removed the tube to see if she would breathe on her own, and she has done great with the change. Monday is also the day they took her out from under the light that helps with jaundice, and it's ALSO the day I held my sweet girl for the second time. Jason could not stand it! He was scared the whole time, and ever since he has discouraged me from holding her explaining that she is too little! He is such a daddy now, and he says he doesn't want to hold her until she is at least 6 pounds. I have a feeling he will change his mind... :) Monday was also the day I finally got out of the hospital. The doctors were reluctant because my blood pressure was still high, but they decided that would be an ongoing battle for a while. It's funny...I had been so ready to leave the hospital, but when the day arrived, I cried thinking of how I would no longer be just around the corner from Ella! Again, we thank God for The Ronald McDonald House!

Tuesday Ella was a week old. In ways it seems like she was born yesterday, and in other ways, I feel as if she has been in the NICU for months. I look at her little, little body and am so amazed at God's handywork. I think of Jesus holding her in His hands, and how one touch from Him keeps everything working as it should. Ella had her first ultrasound of her brain, a routine practice with premies, and we thank the Lord above that everything came back normal! She continued to do well Tuesday, and when we went back for our late night visit, the lady at the desk told us she had been moved to Level 2, the level right before she goes home! WOW, God! We anticipate several more weeks, and are hoping they don't rush her. We want her to have all the time she needs before we go home. But what a huge step! This is where they will start trying to teach her to bottle feed, and where they will begin to see if she can hold her own temperature to be in a regular bed instead of the incubator. Again, we are praying for huge strides forward every day, and are hoping to be home by Christmas. Everyone says with premies often it is 3 steps forward and 5 steps back. But we expect great things from our Father, and are excited about Ella continuing to progress.

Wednesday came and Jason and I had to adjust to the fact that though Level 2 meant progression, it also meant less one on one time as far as nurses are concerned. It is quite different that what we grown accustomed to! The doctor upped her food, as she seemed to be tolerating things well, and the day was very uneventful. When it comes to the NICU, that is the best kind of day! Ella did have her hearing test on Wednesday and she passed! Thank you, Jesus!

When we went for our morning visit on Thursday, we were delighted to find that they had removed Ella's IVs. She was continuing to improve, and again they increased her feedings. However, yesterday afternoon when Jason and my mother visited, they thought her little tummy was swollen. The nurse measured it, and sure enough, it was. Ella's doctor (who we LOVE) came to check on her, and she thought it was just air. She ordered an x-ray just to be sure that Ella did not have an infection. Her doctor told us a couple days earlier that this is the stage where the risk of infection is a little higher as the food is increased. Though the x-ray came back normal, I was still beside myself. Being a mother is so scary! The doctor discovered that the nurse had not been venting her after her feedings, and that she thought she just needed to get rid of the air in her stomach. She assured me that it was probably nothing, and that she would be better over the next couple of days. Needless to say when we went back last night there was a sign on her crib saying "Please Vent Me After Feeding!" They promised to continue to watch her, but we woke up this morning anxious to go check on her!

We found our pretty girl fast asleep this morning. The doctor came by and told us that Ella was better today. They increased her food all the way up to her maximum amount today, and, again, she seems to be tolerating things really well. Bro. Barry came for a nice visit this afternoon, and through his prayer, I was reminded that the Lord has kind and loving hands. I always pray that He holds Ella in His hands, but I forget sometimes what that means, and how special that is. Bro. Barry also prayed that not only did we feel God's Presence, but that Ella would too. This brought tears to my eyes. It never occurred to me that she could be aware of the Father, but the very thought of this gave me so much comfort! I am thankful that the Lord provides wisdom and comfort to His children through other people!

This afternoon the nurses gave her a suppository to help her tummy. When that kicked in she felt much better and Jason and I literally watched her stomach go down in front of our very eyes! We felt much better, and were able to enjoy a nice dinner with my mother. I will close for now, as it is time to practice Kangaroo Care with my little one! I would like to again say thank you for everything including lifting us up in prayer. Please continue to pray for Ella to grow stronger and healthier, and for us a family.

***FOR MORE PICS OF ELLA, CHECK OUT LORI'S BLOG***
(Just click on Foreman Family under my list of friends on my blog page.)

SHE IS HERE!!!

2009-11-12T20:16:00.000-08:00

I can not believe she is finally here. We wanted to wait a little longer, but the Lord has
His perfect timing. The past couple of days have been really hard, but I thought I would share with you the events that led up to the arrival of our little, tiny miracle.

Monday I began to have the feeling that something wasn't right. Nothing had changed physically, but I had a feeling I could not explain. I woke up Monday morning determined to take a shower because I felt like it might be the last chance I would have before she was born. Little did I know that I would be right. Again, I absolutely can not explain it, except to say that I do feel like the Lord sometimes uses those feelings to prepare us for what lies ahead.

Monday Ella's ultrasound was fine, except she did not practice breathing, which is not uncommon in her age (plus all the meds I was taking), but then her heart rate started to dip some during the day. It had happened before, but, again, I just felt like things were different. My doctors put me on continuous monitoring, and gave me another ultrasound that night, which was fine except, again, she would not practice breathing. I called Jason (who was planning to go to Andalusia that night), and convinced he and my Daddy to come spend the night Monday night. Hurricane Ida was set to hit the coast, and there was talk of closing the bridge in Pensacola. I really wanted Daddy and J to be with me and Mama when she was born, and I felt like I wasn't sure if I would make it through the night without delivering Ella. So, they came. But, Monday night passed and still no baby.

Tuesday I woke up with that same weird feeling, and my sweet nurse told me that Ella's heart rate had still been dipping through the night. I asked her if she thought that I would deliver Ella. Though she wasn't saying much, I could tell she was nervous, and she paged one of the resident doctors who came in my room and told me my anxiety was getting the best of me, that I should think positive thoughts and that we would see how my ultrasound went that day. Five minutes later, Dr. Doback, one of the two main doctors handling my case, came in and did an ultrasound, and could not get Ella to move. He said we had one hour, and that I needed to get my Daddy and Jason here right away. From that point, things moved very quickly, and I got to see Jason walking through the door as Dr. Doback was wheeling me into the operating room. He was not allowed to come in with me because since I had back surgery, they weren't sure an epidural would take, so they decided to put me under general anesthesia. Since my delivery, I have learned that Dr. Doback does not usually go into surgery with his patients, and Jason and I have discussed how much that meant to us that he was with me. We feel like that is just another way the Lord was looking out for me and Ella, and we believe Dr. Doback is a gift to us from God. We're not sure if it's just because he loves the Tide like J, or what, but whatever the reason he chose to be with us, we are very greatful, and I feel like he is the reason things went as well as they did. So thank you, Dr. Doback...you are forever in our hearts and lives.

Looking back, I am really thankful that I was, in a way, prepared, as it made seem things less scary. Of course the rest of Tuesday is a huge blur, and I was completely out of it the rest of the day. I vaguely remember people who visited, and bits and pieces of conversations. It was only today that I remembered Jason bought me a necklace with Ella's birthstone that day, and he also bought her a tiny ring with hearts and her birthstone. He wanted us both to have something special to celebrate her birth. Did I tell you I have the best husband ever?

Yesterday I woke up thinking what a breeze my C-section had been, and how I was not even in pain. What I didn't realize was that I had an IV hooked up with medication that they later told me was 13 times stronger than Morphine, and all I had to do was push a little button to receive the meds, and that I could get a dose of it as often as every six minutes. One of my great resident doctors came by and told me that they would be unhooking that and the magnesium drip at 11:00 yesterday morning. I remember her telling me to hit the button before they unhooked me and before I attempted to get up, and I remember thinking how that would probably not be necessary. Well, I guess I didn't realize how often I pushed my little button, because when 11:00 rolled around, for the second time during this hospital stay, I thought I would not make it through the day. I got up to find lots of blood, which really scared me, but everyone reassured me was completely normal. Then as I tried to eat before my shower, I discovered I couldn't keep anything down, which is REALLY fun when you have stitches and staples in the muscles of your stomach that you use for many things but just don't realize it. Not only did they have to cut me across my stomach, but Ella got stuck so they also had to make a vertical cut in my uterus. Super fun.

I finally made it to the shower, and then I was faced with the task of changing rooms. Even though my sweet family did all the work, I felt so overwhelmed, and I began to be overcome with emotion. Plus, I had not even laid eyes on my daughter.

We got moved, and then I went to meet my sweet Ella. I did not know how much I loved her until I saw her. I came back to my room to find some friends and family who had come to visit, and they provided a much needed distraction from the pain, and the fact that our baby girl was what felt like miles away hooked up to a bunch of machines. When my sweet company left, my sweet mother was left to take care of me. I know I have said this before, but I could not have made it here without her, my daddy, and Jason. My mother has been here to carry me around in the wheelchair, listen to me, cry with me...and she has never once complained. Not once. I am amazed at her strength and love, and again, I thank the Lord above for such a special woman as my mother. I hope I can be half of the mother she is.

As I was crying through the pain with my stomach feeling like a watermelon, she assured me that I would be better every day that passed. After an exhausting day for her, she went to stay down the hill at the Ronald McDonald house. We were fortunate enough to be able to reserve a room there (another blessing from God), and until I get out of the hospital, a family member has to stay there or we will lose our spot. I have not been there yet, but my mother and Jason say it is amazing. I am so thankful we will be able to stay close to Ella without the costs of hotel fees. I will also be forever thankful to whatever genius came up with this idea.

Last night, Jason stayed at the hospital with me and, of course, got no rest, as he had to wake up and help me walk to the bathroom, which proved to be a long and daunting task. When you wake up at 2:30 in the morning to go to work, every moment of sleep lost is huge. Again, what would I do without him? About 12:30 last night, I was overcome with emotion (and hormones?) and became almost hysterical thinking of Ella, which, again is not ideal with a stapled stomach. My wonderful nurse came and got me, though, and we went to see my baby girl for about an hour in the middle of the night. I have been so surprised at how much I have been crying over Ella. Afterall, Jesus has blessed us by watching over her from the moment she arrived. She has, so far, had to have no medications, or even oxygen, which is not always the case with premie babies. Her breathing has been fine, and all of her nurses assure us she is doing wonderful. Still, there are moments when I am consumed with the fact that she is so little and helpless, and there are times I find myself begging the Lord to take care of her, to make her healthier and stronger and to keep her safe. My faith is in Him alone, but Satan uses quiet moments to instill doubt and fear deep in my heart. Please be in prayer about that.

Still, today has been much better. My pain has been decreasing, and my mood has been improving. Mother and I visited baby Ella in the NICU unit today, and she is doing very well. She has lost a little weight, which is to be expected, but other than that she is pretty and perfect. To us anyway. When Jason got here after work, we went back to see her, and I got pretty upset again. I am feeling better now after some prayer and comfort from J and my awesome nurses. I hope things continue to get even better and better as the days pass. I can't wait to start our new life with our little girl, and I can't wait for all you who have prayed so hard and kept us in your thoughts to meet her! Please keep praying for me and my family. I know we have some long days ahead...

Ella Charles

2009-11-10T14:30:00.000-08:00

One more picture of our sweet girl!!

Ella Charles is Here!!

2009-11-10T11:18:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! This is Lori... the only people that can see Ella Charles is Jason right now and then they are going to let the grandparents see here but that's all for a while. She will definately be in the hospital for 5 weeks at the best so she'll be here for a while.

She weighed 2 lbs. 11 oz. and is 15 inches long and BEAUTIFUL!! Here are our first pictures that Jay took for us. So, enjoy!! Mother and baby are still doing well!

11 days?

2009-11-05T14:41:00.000-08:00

Today has been a good day. Other than those fleeting moments of worry and wonder, I woke up surprisingly overwhelmed with a confident peace that the Lord was taking care of things. And once again, He has.

As you may know, we, along with the doctors, have set a goal of Nov. 16 for Ella's birthday. Earlier this week, I asked Dr. Thorp if Nov. 15 came around, and things were still good, then what? He said if I made it to next week, we would revisit that question then. We know that the docs. know best, and we don't want to push too far, but we (J especially) don't want to short ourselves or our daughter on time. Again, we are praying every day for more and more time, as that will be less time she has to be in the hospital. It's funny how much my point of view has changed lately. I feel so blessed with each passing day, and just thank our Father above that I am still here. My nurse and I were discussing today just how sick I was when I came here (AND HAD NO IDEA), and as I've said before both of my docs. have said they both thought I would have delivered by now. They weighed me the other day, and I have lost 21 pounds since I have been here. Just fluid. I am truly, truly amazed at how far I have come, and I shudder to think of what could have happened had I not been transferred from Dothan that night. Tomorrow will be one month exactly. The days do seem to be passing faster, but I guess it's because my days are full of lots of sleeping. I can tell my poor mother is wearing down, as HER days are filled with crossword puzzles, reading, and walks through the courtyard. I can not imagine being here without her.

The itching is MUCH better, so thanks for all the prayers about that. My bp is still kind of all over the place, but just not as high as it was before. They are discussing changing my meds a little, and that is scary because I never know how my system will take even a minor adjustment in medication. Please be in prayer about that. I am also praying that Ella will arrive healthy and strong, and that the docs. will be amazed at how well she is. Ultimately, I will say again, we realize she is in the Lord's hands, and He loves her more than we do. I really never knew you could love someone so much when you haven't even met them!

Dr. Thorp just came in and said my strips (where they monitor her heartbeat three times a day for an hour) looked better today than he has seen them, and that today is the first day in several weeks that the bloodflow through the umbilical cord was not absent, which is good. Though my fluid was a little lower yesterday, it was back up today, and everything is looking great. She's been moving a lot, which he says is the most important indication of how things are going. Before he left my room, he said "Nov. 16, right?" I just laughed and told him we would talk about that next week. He said he is usually pushing patients to go further, not the other way around. He said he has never had a patient push him before. Well, we just believe God is doing amazing things every day, and we have much faith that He will continue to work miracles. We give Him the glory in everything, and we continue to thank you for your support and your prayers. As one of my favorite (resident) docs. said to me the other day, "It ain't as long as it has been..." This will all be over soon, and I pray that one day Ella can use this story to speak of God's amazing love and faithfulness. I know Jason and I will. We will never be the same, and really I am excited about how the Lord will use our story for His kingdom. We will see...

We made it to November!

2009-10-31T22:47:00.000-07:00

Another day has passed, and the Lord has continued to bless us. It has been kind of rough today, but tomorrow is a new morning.

I started the day late as my sweet nurse let me sleep in. But that meant taking my meds later than usual so when it was time for my ultrasound little Ella was very sleepy, which was scary for a minute there because they like to see LOTS of movement during the u/s. The techs, I assume, don't work on the weekends, so Dr. Doback himself performed my u/s today. He is a second specialist who works alongside Dr. Thorp on cases such as mine. He was FINALLY able to get Ella to move and practice breathing (another requirement), and so we passed. He said we are good at least until tomorrow. We are still praying tomorrow brings another tomorrow. Dr. Doback also said that there is a slight problem with the bloodflow through the umbilical cord (we have known this from the beginning), and that it will not be anything serious enough to make me deliver, UNLESS the bloodflow reverses. So, we are praying against that.

My rash is about the same, and I swear I think it may drive me to madness. However, I think I mentioned they prescribed a new medication yesterday that they use for people who are having probs. with their gallbladder. I am praying it helps, and that or the hydrocortisone cream DOES seem to be working. Maybe it will continue to get better.

The finger-pricking is getting really old really fast. The nurse says they use "industrial size"meter, and, I know, in the grand scheme of things this should not be a big deal, but my fingers are sore, and nothing seems to be happening. The nurse asked one of my docs. about it tonight, and he said he just assumed I was diabetic. Well, no. So, in the morning, I will have an official glucose test to make sure I don't have gestational diabetes. I am praying that goes well because ice cream and candy bars make my stay a little more pleasant.

I have been crying lots today. It started with a long talk with my nurse about the NICU unit this morning. Then I just sort of became overwhelmed. Borrowing trouble again, I guess. I am just missing my pets, and am sad because my little dog, Happy, is just not adjusting well. He will hardly eat, and has an eye infection from a scratch (I'm thinking I know who is the source of that...), and his eye is not getting better because he is crying so much. I have seen him twice since I have been here, and he just makes me sad that I can't be there to take care of him. Again, this may seem trivial to many of you, but if you have ever had a pet that you loved, you know what I mean. And it's just another reminder that I am away from my home. I feel consumed by so many things. I am wondering how we are going to get our house ready for Ella...I am scared at how long she will have to be in the hospital and what she will look like (so little and helpless, I mean)...I am nervous about not knowing if we can wait a little longer...I am sad that I can't be at home...Don't get me wrong; I KNOW how blessed I am and how much our Father is watching out for us...it's just these brief periods of darkness that are SO hard to take. I don't know how people face anything without the Lord. I don't. I am so thankful that we can lean on Him and depend on Him. Jason reminds me every day that we are in Jesus' hands, and how much He loves our child. I would not have made it this far without prayers and my family. My parents and Jason have been so amazing through this. Lots of people have and, again, we thank you. Please pray that we (I) can continue to focus on our many blessings.

Day by Day

2009-10-29T21:41:00.000-07:00

Things have been good today. One of my sweet Dr.s who reassures me by his calming presence, told me that everything was looking even better today, in regards to the ultrasounds and monitors. However, several new but minor complications seem to be arising. The rash is worse and they decided to try an anxiety medicine to maybe help stop the itching. It completely knocks me out, but works like a charm. However, since yesterday I have been having a couple of low bps. Today I had one that was like 104/49 which they say is completely unacceptable and harmful to the baby since she is used to thriving on high pressures. The docs. are completely puzzled about the situation, but for now I have decided I will just itch. It is not worth delivering our child for a little relief. Relief for me will come soon enough. They have also decided to test my liver and gallbladder, as they say sometimes they do not function properly during pregnancy, which could be the source of the rash. PLUS, my glucose levels have been elevated during my labs, so now I get a finger prick after every meal, which may lead to ANOTHER shot every day of insulin. I actually am becoming quite the champ, I think, between the IV's, blood tests, and shots. I would never have thought I could do it...I used to cry when I had to get my blood drawn! It's amazing at the strength that comes, and what you can go through. I just keep thinking of how much bigger and stronger she is becoming, and with the Lord's help, November 16 will be here before we know it. Right now, Ella weighs 2 lbs and 14 oz, and if she can stay on track, she should weigh almost 4 lbs. when she gets here. Please continue to lift us up in prayer. God is doing amazing things here daily, and I thank each of you.

I was thinking tonight of what I would normally post about this time of year. It would have to be the overwhelming beauty of the fall...the crisp in the air. There are so many fun things I am missing out on like the fair and the fall festival at our church. But next year...I have been outside 2 times since I have been here (in a wheelchair at that) but both days were cool and windy. I love the fall! It seems fresh and hopeful.

I feel like my posts are always so serious, so I have decided to do a post inspired by an e-mail that Lori sent me a while back. I know this is a long post, but this will make me feel semi-normal instead of like I am trapped here in the hospital (and am praying to continue to be for a while.)

So...

25 Random Things About Me:

1)I LOVE to write. (Can you tell?) I have written several children's books, and hope to one day have them published. I like to think of special children in my life, and write books for them. I wrote one for Jack for his birthday (called "Uncle Tractor" about him and my Daddy), and I wrote one about a sister pig with Tara's Piper in mind. (Tara loves pigs.)

2)The Umpa Lumpas terrify me. (You know from "Willy Wonka"...) Clowns freak me out too. And there's this movie (NOT A CHILDREN'S MOVIE) that we watched as children called "Return to Oz"...There are scary people in it with squeaky wheels for hands and feet, (called "The Wheelers") and they chase kids...SO SCARY...Also, spiders. HATE spiders.

3)When I was a child, I had a blanket that I rubbed over my lips and through my fingers until it literally was a small thread. Even now, when I am anxious or nervous I catch myself rubbing my shirt tail with my fingers.

4)I was adopted at 3 months old to the best parents EVER. My mother has always told me that if she had birthed a child it would have been me because the Lord put us together as a family.

5)I am TERRIBLE at sports. All of them. Except bowling. (Is that a sport?) I was actually on a bowling league and did pretty well. So was Jason. We quit it because it was on Sunday nights, and we missed going to church.

6)There are only 7 people/groups that I have, as long as I can remember, said I would see in concert before I die, and I have seen 4 out of 7 of them. (Elton John, John Mayer-LOVED him for a while before he started talking instead of singing, Stone Temple Pilots, and Train.) The three left are Sting, Dave Matthews, (MY FAV.) and Aerosmith. I have also seen Gary Allen, George Jones, John Conley, Disturbed, Fuel, Maroon 5, Five for Fighting, Ray Boltz, an awesome concert comprised of several Christian singers (think the lead singer from Third Day), and several others I'm sure I am forgetting. Each one has been different and awesome, but it's hard to beat Elton with just a piano for 3 hours.

7)Jason was my best friend in high school, and I would have never dated him then. I met him when I went to Andalusia High School (for one year), and we even had a notebook we wrote in and passed back and forth in English. I still have it! One day I was going to be out of school (I think it may have been my birthday...) and just to kid him, I told Jason I was having my tonsils removed. Well, he went to the hospital, and even brought me a little puppy as a get well present! I felt TERRIBLE! That turned out to be Jason's favorite dog he ever had,though! And look what God had planned!

8)I have two dogs and a cat. My cat, Maisy, is beautiful with long gray hair and green eyes. Jason got her for me Christmas 2001, after I had moved home from Auburn. I had a cat that I brought home with me that got outside,and my big bulldog, Pup, killed it. Maisy was a replacement, and she is the best cat ever. She is definitely not a people cat (most people that come over don't even know we have her), and she hates the dogs. If they get close to her when they walk by, she slaps them, and sometimes draws blood from their nose or their ear-whatever she catches. Sometimes sweet little Happy will be asleep at the end of the bed, and she will jump up and start to chase him, knives ready. He is terrified of her. So is Tip.

9)Happy (my little white poodle mix) I found 3 months after we got married at my cousin Kelley's house. We drove around the neighborhood all afternoon looking for his home. We finally found where he lived at the man acted like he didn't even want him. He told me I could have him. I left him, though, and cried all night. I called him the next day, and he told me to come get him. So, I did. Kelley told me I should have named him "Circles" because he turns a million circles a day. He is really smart (he knows to speak, say please (yes, he does them differently), throw and catch his toys. In other ways, he's really dumb...he will not walk by anything that is on the floor; he will just stand there and cry for hours until you pick him up. He is also terrified of plastic bags, and any noise a dish in the sink may make.

10)Tip was an anniversary present for J. I regretted it so much at first because he tore my house to pieces. Now, he has my heart. He will go outside when we have the baby, and that will be a big adjustment for him (and his daddy.)

11)My favorite movies are "Serendipity" and "You've Got Mail". Such a girl, right? Best drama if you need a good cry-"The War" with Kevin Costner.

12)The funniest show that I have EVER seen is "The Office." You may have to watch it a couple of times to catch the humor, but it is addictive. My other all time favorite shows are "The Gilmore Girls" and, yes, "Gilligan's Island."

13)Christmas is my favorite time of the year, and I try to watch a Christmas movie every day in
December, which my husband loves.

14)I once rode in a hot-air balloon over the desert in Arizona. It was amazing.

15)I love to fly and travel, and hope to continue to do lots of both.

16)Jason proposed to me under a big tree at our church after we had a big fight.

17)I am severely allergic to seafood. We went with Tara and Timmy to a Japanese Steakhouse a couple of years ago for my birthday. They kept the shrimp separate but used the same spatula and I had to stop 4 times on the way home because I was so sick. It seems to get progressively worse as I get older.

18)The best lasagna I've ever had was in Ecuador.

19)The worst food I've ever had was in Ecuador.

20)I love rainy days and Italian food.

21)I do not understand how to use E-Bay. It confuses me.

22)I hope to finish school and teach one day.

23)I have a scar on my knee from when I fell on the tennis courts in the 6th grade. I remember I was so upset because I messed up my favorite pair of jeans.

24)I was a cheerleader in highschool, and in the LBW Ensemble in college. I absolutely loved both, but could never imagine myself doing either in the present day.

25)My first car was a turquoise blue Lumina that we referred to as the Luminator. I used to take it mud-riding, and pack as many people as would possibly fit in there. My parents would get SO mad.

So, there you go. A few random things about me. Will post more soon, and try to be shorter next time.

Still pregnant...

2009-10-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

29 weeks and counting. The original goal here for us was 33 weeks, and we are managing to push closer every day. Yesterday, Dr. Thorp ordered me to have an ultrasound every day instead of every other day, so this morning I woke up pretty anxious knowing what was ahead. I have some of my favorite scriptures posted in front of my bed, so when I feel overwhelmed, I look up and try to focus on Jesus and His promises. Jason (my other constant source of strength) reminds me that Jesus loves our little girl even more than we do, and that He has His perfect timing. I know he's right, and we have experienced that first hand several times, as there has been more than one occasion that different doctors have told me they expected me to deliver already.

I know the Lord does have His perfect timing, but I also think He listens to the prayers of His children, and we are continuing to pray daily for Ella to stay with me a little longer. As a matter of fact, J and I set a personal goal of November 16. That will be the Monday after I am 32 weeks. (I will be 33 weeks the next Saturday, and my doc. has already told me, and continues to tell me, he will not let me go over 33 weeks.) Anyway, I told Dr. Thorp this morning about November 16, and he told the nurse to go ahead and schedule my C-section for that day. I was so surprised! But now that is the new plan. Unless something begins to change for the worst, Ella will be born November 16. The fact that he so quickly agreed to the date, reassured me, and made me feel like that is something that he thinks is obtainable. Again, there are several factors that affect this decision, so we still need lots of prayer every day. Two verses that have come to mean a lot to me this week are Matthew 17:20 (faith like a mustard seed) and Ephesians 3:20,21 which speaks of how the Lord is able to do immeasurably more than we ask or imagine. I am receiving nothing from this experience, if not a lesson in the power of prayer and faith. Again, I am thankful, too that His mercies are new every morning.

Thank you all so much for the prayers, gifts, cards, and comments on my blog. Some of you I have not spoken with in years, and I am thankful that you took the time to show your love and support.

Brittany, thanks for the tip on the water...something is working (prayer, I know), and I want you to know I prayed for you and your baby too.

Shelley, just to let you know...these nurses here are amazing, and EVERY one of them talks about how they love and miss you. I hope you have a wonderful honeymoon.

To all of you at Hopewell, I hope the fall festival is amazing tomorrow night, and I wish I could be there to help. Next year, Ella and I will be there with bells on.

They just gave me something for this horrible itching, and though it seems to be working, I am getting extremely sleepy, and I didn't sleep at all last night. I know I have mentioned that some of these meds. give me horrible nightmares, so I almost kindof dread going to sleep. I try to get naps during the day, and now is the time. Will post more soon...

LOTS of prayer requests...

2009-10-24T11:33:00.000-07:00

Today is a pretty good day. We made it through this week with no major catastrophes, (kind of a record for Fridays here) and, in the Lord's hands, we just keep on pushing.

My doc. came in this morning with good news, and maybe some not so good news. My protein levels have gone done from a 10 to a 4 since last week (very good thing), and my monitoring and ultrasounds, for the most part look really good. However, the fluid levels surrounding the baby seem to be decreasing every other day. (They know this from the ulrasounds.) Dr. Thorp said this is not something to be overly concerned about, but it does mean we may not make it to 33 weeks. We are still staying positive, and are expecting to make it to our original goal. We will know more about it Monday, and the doc. even said that the levels could be back up Monday. I thought he was joking, but the nurse told me that it's definitely possible, and they have seen it happen before. She also assured me that SEVERAL different factors play in to whether it's time to deliver or not, and it just depends on what they feel will be best for me and the baby at the time. So we will see...

One of my main prayer requests since I have been here is concerning abnormal ultrasounds. Previously, I had two other different areas that were irregular, and, through much prayer, each area has been corrected. I believe in the Lord, and I believe He is able to perform mighty miracles, so we are just praying in the direction that He will correct this problem just as He has several other complications so far. He is so mighty...

Also, my bp was kind of all over the map yesterday. Though my high ones were not extremely high (like 165 or 170-they like to keep it between 140 and 150 for me) I only really had one GOOD reading yesterday. They are not happy about that, and are continuing to limit visitors, AND I actually have had a couple lately that are way too low for me. Thursday I had one that was like 93/68. The Dr. said that is too low for me because the baby is used to much higher pressures, and actually needs those to keep thriving. They were hoping to have me more steady and stable by now, so please pray for that as well.

My spirits have been pretty good lately, and Dr. Thorp told me Thursday that he believed that was a huge reason I haven't delivered. Of course, that made me very happy, and I am trying hard to keep it up for our little girl. Every day she is growing and growing, and she becomes even more real to me, as I feel her wiggle and move lots and lots. I am just am lifting her up to the Father every day, and I ask that he gives me a little more time to keep her growing and growing before she arrives.

Please pray for my sweet mother who has not left Pensacola since I have been here. She won't. She is here with me many nights (or at her aunt's house who conveniently lives about 10 mins. away:), and every day. She is extremely tired and taxed (though she would never say it), and pray for strength and rest for her. Also, pray for her and my Daddy financially. He is busting it 5 days a week from 3:30 in the morning, and spending his weekends here. They have many unexpected expenses from hotel rooms to gas and food. (My mother buys me 3 meals a day so I won't have to eat cafeteria food, plus lots of other little things. For example, she bought me some Halloween streamers to decorate my room so I would feel more at home...greatest mother EVER.)

Pray that my Daddy and Jason would get rest as well. They both go to work so early, and I know my Daddy is lonely without my mother. And Jason spends almost EVERY night here with me. Then he goes home and has to wash clothes, care for our dogs...Again, we couldn't do it without lots of help, but DO please pray for my wonderful family. They are a huge reason I can keep going.

Please pray for my allergies. I have always had really sensitive skin and about 3 days ago, I started itching and clawing like crazy. My Dr. has ruled out the meds (thank you, Jesus), but other than that it is REALLY hard to track down what is causing it. They got me special sheets, but they are not sure WHAT could be the cause, from the laundry detergent to the towels. I am red and super itchy so pray that we could find the source of that.

Despite each of these minor details, I am aware more and more every day of the Lord's presence and His goodness. In a way, I feel kind of lucky to have this kind of extra time to focus on Him, and draw even closer to my precious friends and family. Also, until you experience something like this, you can NEVER understand the amazing love and generosity that people have deep inside. We have been blown away.

Again, thank you all for everything. I can't wait to one day tell Ella how much she was loved on and prayed for even before she was here. Until next time...just keep praying.

Thank You

2009-10-13T11:52:00.000-07:00

Well, here I am. Sacred Heart Hospital. I wound up here in a whirl-wind of events, and it seems as though these people have saved my life, as well as given us hope for our daughter. I am praying to the merciful Lord above that Ella can hang in there with her mom for a couple more weeks. Jason brought me my computer, as he knows how I love to blog. I have come to realize he is the sweetest husband ever. I am immensely blessed to have friends and family like you. You have overwhelmed me with your love and kindness, and words can NEVER express how much you all have touched me and my family. You never think you will be the one this kind of stuff happens to, but our Savior provides strength and comfort every day. The verse from Lamentations has been a resounding source of hope, you know the one that promises His mercies are new every morning. He has already been so good to us, and I am hopeful for our bright future. I think He has big plans for our little girl, and He is helping me push through each day. I am having trouble breathing, and I am very weak. Still, God is good all the time. Thank you again for all that you have done. Hope to keep you posted with more good news...

For everything there is a season...

2009-10-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

And now's the time for football. You know what that means for me...plenty of time to blog! Yes, computer's still broken. But REALLY long days and nights at Lori's are not fruitless for me!

What could be a better time to blog? Fall is here as well, and it is my the beginnig of my favorite time of the year. The air is fresh and the wind is full of promise. At least that's the way I always feel. There's so many fun things to do and see, and I love the colors, smells, and opportunities that are present from now until the end of December. The cooler weather is always a plus, especially this year when it seems that cooling off is not a possibility for me. Blame it on the hormones, huh?

The pregnancy is going well, thanks to lots of prayers. We've had a couple of scary little incidents, the latest being rising blood pressure and the scare of possible toxemia. The Lord has provided His ever-present protection, and for now, we seem to be on the safe side.

Ella Charles is the name we have chosen for our sweet girl. (Jason gave in to her middle name, explaining to Lori that he was okay with "Charles" because we just wouldn't teach her her middle name...my sweet J...what can I say about him?) We have so much to be thankful for, and catching up on everyone's blog tonight reaffirms those thoughts. Thanks for the reminders on faith and God's goodness. That's something I should focus on more often, and I feel like I would have a much more peaceful life. I am always borrowing trouble from tomorrow, though His Living Word reminds me that He has better things for me! Yet another thing I should focus on...

We have a lot to do to our house before Ella gets here (her nursery is currently full of baseball cards and hunting gear...), and we are running low on time! I am getting anxious, but I know it will work out. I am blessed with a great man who wants the best for his daughter and his wife, and I know he will somehow work it out in between hunting and football!

BY THE WAY, before I forget, there are a couple of you I could not catch up with (Lori G, Tina...)and I would like to. Let me know how.

ALSO, TO ALL OF YOU "FACEBOOKERS"...
I am extremely happy that you found yet another way to connect with the rest of the world, but PLEASE don't forget about blogging. That is the only way I can keep up with everyone, and I admit, I'm not even good at that! I keep hearing how I need to get on facebook myself, but with no consistent internet access, I say what's really the point? Just one more thing I would have to spend hours catching up on!

I hope to become a regular again in the blogging world, but we shall see! As long as there's a game. Until next time...

It's a...

2009-08-16T13:00:00.000-07:00

GIRL! Many of you probably already know, but J and I went to my wonderful Dr. last Wednesday, and what we found when we were there was our sweet little girl looking right up at us through the ultrasound. Obviously, she turned and we were able to CLEARLY see she was a she! I am still amazed by the Lord's greatness, and I still can't believe He has blessed us with a child. Her first name is decided (Ella), but we are still working on her middle name. I want it to be Charles after both of her grandfathers, but my husband...not so much. We are all working on him, though, and I have a feeling he will come around. I am halfway there! I was 20 weeks yesterday. I am praying that the last half will be as healthy and wonderful as the first! Thanks for all your prayers. Please keep it up!

Pregnancy Update

2009-07-11T20:56:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's Lori. Some friends have been asking to see how much Carrie has grown with her pregnancy. I took a picture of her tummy when we went to the beach today so I'm hijacking her blog to show you guys:)

Pretty cute, right? I'm pretty sure that she's around 13 or 14 weeks. She's supposed to find out if it's a boy or girl in August. I guess I'll have to keep you guys updated:)

I'm also adding this picture of her and Jason just b/c I think it's really good.

God's Amazing Grace -Ecuador part 1

2009-06-13T19:03:00.000-07:00

I am back from yet another amazing mission trip. I am humbled by the many opportunities I have had this week to pray for people and just worship the Father. It only takes a glance to recognize the Lord's powerful love when you are in a beautiful land like Ecuador. The week started off pretty rocky. As most of you know, I am pregnant and have felt miraculously healthy...until the Friday that we leave for our trip. On the plane, I began to feel REALLY sick, and I developed a headache. Then, as Satan would have it, our luggage did not arrive in Ecuador when we did. I was exhausted and extremely discouraged. I really felt like I had made a huge mistake. Had it not been for my sweet sisters from Hopewell watching out for me (and even insisting on carrying my backpack!), I really do not know how I could have made it. (I love you girls!)

Friday night we stayed at this hotel when we arrived in Quito. I was so sick I don't remember much about it except the bathroom floor flooded every time we flushed the toilet...

Saturday morning I woke up optimistic, but soon found more of the same...extreme nausea and overwhelming feelings of regret and fear. (Again one of the many attacks of the enemy.) After a LONG 4 hour taxi ride through the mountains, (which surprisingly included the soundtrack of Bon Jovi, Def Leopard, and even a little "Carrie" by Europe) we finally arrived at our final destination, Riobamba. I began to feel a little better, and decided to go to an English speaking Bible study, where anyone interested in learning the English language could attend, and at the same time be presented the gospel through studying the Bible. I ALMOST didn't go, but the Lord gave me the strength and motivation to participate. What a blessing I received! It just so happened that there were the same amount of Ecuadorians as there were Americans. So we were split into pairs and were to discuss some particular Bible verses. My partner was Victor. We not only talked about our verses, but he began to ask me all manner of things about Christianity. He was a young believer, and I was inspired by how curious he was. We talked about Catholicism and how it varied from our beliefs, baptism, even tithing! I can only say the Holy Spirit guided my words, and we had a very special experience. Victor, I hope you are reading this, and know I am committed to continue to pray for you, and your walk with our Savior.

(Victor)

Sunday morning I woke up completely different. Though the previous days had been (mostly) filled with sickness and discouragement, I was overcome by His grace and comfort. He put a song in my heart, and the moment my eyes opened that morning, I began to sing it over and over. "I lift my eyes up to the hills, where does my help come from, my help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth." As you can see from the picture above, if Ecuador is anything, it is many mountains and hills. It was as if He was saying, "Look around you. I brought you to this amazing place for a reason. Trust me. I will take care of you." Sunday marked the dawn of a new day. Still no luggage, but no more sickness. Thank you Jesus.

(the girls, Sharon, Misty, me, Meredith, from the top of our beautiful hotel)

After a delicious breakfast and some fresh squeezed pineapple juice, we left to meet at the church. Our plans for the day included driving up the mountain to a natural, warm spring to witness the baptism. Again, I have never seen such beauty, and have never felt closer to God through nature. Here are some pics. of places we passed on the way to the baptism...

We arrived at the springs, and, well, you can see for yourself...

(Misty and Sharon)

Here is Bro. Johnny Maust, the missionary we worked with, sharing the message of the importance of salvation and baptism. Alex, (the guy in the red sweatshirt) is also a fairly new believer, and is good friends with my pal, Victor.

This is Maria, a new sister in Christ. (Ring the bells of heaven.) She is joined by Bro. Johnny and the local pastor of the mission church. We later had a chance to hear (though we couldn't understand) this sweet pastor who is so on fire for the Lord. He has had a tragedy in his family recently. His daughter's husband (who was 28) died from his heart malfunctioning while he was lifting weights. His wife (the pastor's daughter) is 5 months pregnant, and does not have a job. Before the baptism, the pastor spoke about his son-in-law's death, only to remind his congregation that the we never know when it will be our time.

More pics of the way down...

Sunday night we went to my favorite place to eat in Ecuador. Juan and his wife (the owners) are also Christians, and have recently experienced a myriad of discouraging events as well. They are really sweet people, and make the best lasagna I have ever had. Ever.

Sunday winds down with ice cream...

...and phone calls home. What an awesome day!

This is the amazing view of the city (Riobamba) from our window in our hotel room.

This is our beautiful hotel, "Rincon Alemon." If you are ever in Ecuador, this is the place to stay!

Monday we visited the town of Guano. We stopped to pray over the whole city first thing that morning. Though the town is breathtaking, it is full of darkness and spiritual warfare. There are lots of addictions and strongholds there, including idolatry and witchcraft. A long time ago, they even used to sacrifice virgins in the natural pools there. As you can imagine, praying for these people was spiritually and emotionally draining.

It is so different there, and in Ecuador in general. I remember last year when we were in Guano, Bro. Johnny told me that there are people that stand on the corner with goats, and people line up to buy a glass of milk. Yep. They milk the goat, sell it by the glassful, and then the next person in line gets the next glass of milk. (Same glass and all, you know...)

(headed down into Guano)

Ecuador is where most of the world's roses that are sold come from. Can't you see why? They have the most beautiful plants there!

This precious little girl is holding a card that my sweet kids in my class (Discipleship Training) made. They wanted to let the people in Ecuador know that Jesus loves them.

This is at a school in Guano. Though the principal is not a Christian, he always welcomes Christian teams and visitors. We loved visiting the school and playing with the kids.

This is Anita. I met her last year, and when I thought of Ecuador, I thought of her. She is one of the very few Christians in Guano, and she has lost many friends and family members because
of her faith. Her daddy would even hit her in the face and beat her so she would be too embarassed to go to church. But that did not stop her. Her dedication humbles and amazes me. When I think about what these people go through for their Lord, I am convicted. I have every opportunity and freedom available and sometimes I don't even pick up my Bible... Anita has just married a non-believer and the Mausts fear that he is just like her father. I am praying that the Lord will perform miracles, and that she will influence him, not the other way around.

the "square"

This is one of their means of public transportation!

more Guano

This is one of my highlights of the whole week. This little boy's name is Nay. He has severe Cerebral Palsey. He is 14 years old. That is his grandmother holding him, and his mother (Maria Lana) reaching across to touch his cheek. You can see he is a special little boy. His mother is not married, and she just had another little baby girl. (That in itself is a miracle. The health care in Ecuador(from what I understand) is not the greatest. A couple of weeks before she had the baby, she began leaking fluid. However, her doctor told her is was urine. When the baby was born, there was NO amniotic fluid left.) Maria Lana said she wanted to have a healthy baby who could love her back. When we went to visit, Sharon felt led to sing Jesus loves me to Nay. We all gathered around him (even though he can't see, and they are not sure how well he can hear), and sang (through many tears) Jesus loves me to that precious child. His mother began to cry. She thanked us and told us that she feels like nobody loves her son. It was one of the greatest experiences of my entire life! (Thank you , Sharon, for being obedient...look what we would have missed!) I know people say you can stay home and pray, and they are right...you can. I also know that some people are not able to go on a mission trip, nor does the Lord call everyone to go. But if he calls you, I challenge you to go. Your life will never be the same.

Well, I have lots more pics and stories, but I have barely been able to finish this! We have had VBS this week, and I came home from Ecuador sick. Since I can't take anything, I am getting worse and worse, but maybe things will be looking up soon. A bit of good news; I went to see Dr. Butler this week (yes, love him...) , and he said everything is great. Blood work is fine, blood pressure is fine, and I have only gained 3 pounds! (I was a little nervous about the last one.) I am 11 weeks today, and am still in awe that the Lord has given us this amzing surprise. I will post more on Ecuador soon. (I hope.)

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!

2009-05-13T16:01:00.000-07:00

Can you believe it? We absolutely can not! To understand how awesome our Lord is (though the fact that I'm pregnant is evidence enough), I have to start back in August of 2006. Lori and Ben had just found out they were expecting (another miracle, as they anticipated a little trouble.) I remember being so excited for them. I loved watching Lori change and grow, and of course when Baby Jack was finally here...well you know the rest. I fell in love with him instantly. Jason and I began to talk about trying to have a baby. Well, I vividly remember praying together and asking the Lord to bless us with a child, but in His timing. The days passed then weeks...Next, we found out that my best friend, Tara was pregnant with Sweet Piper. Of course we were thrilled, and we couldn't wait for it to be our turn. After a minor surgery and several trips to the doctor,though, we discovered I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. So there it was...a valid reason we would have an extremely hard time starting a family. Jason and I just continued to pray and (TRIED) to be patient.

The beginning of this year was different for me. I started the year off really inspired and fired up for Jesus. For some reason, I felt like this would be the year of change for me and my family. And (as you may remember), Jeremiah 29:11 had been written across my heart since January 1. But, a couple of months ago, Jason and I began to throw around the idea of maybe taking steps toward fertility by this summer if I wasn't pregnant by then. To be quite honest, I did not have a peace about that, but let's face it, 29 is upon me! I have been really discouraged, and felt my spirit was breaking over the past couple of months. I began to wonder if we would ever have a child. Jason recently told me that he had accepted that it might just be me and him, and that he felt a peace about that. I am thankful for such a sweet and wonderful husband.

Two weeks ago, I went to a women's conference in Pensacola. I didn't even want to go, but Lori talked me into it, and I'm so glad she did. The conference was about being real. I had such a powerful experience! The Lord gave me a new perspective about so many things! All of the speakers were wonderful, but one in particular really touched my heart. She spoke on the story of the woman at the well in a fresh and different way. She talked about how that woman would have missed out on Jesus had she assumed that He was like all the other men in her life. One of her points was that just because something turned out one way before, that doesn't mean that the same thing will happen next time. She said, "Remember... THIS does not mean THAT." Wow. It was like God was saying, "Remember who I am...stop doubting Me; My mercies are new every morning." I began to pour out my soul to the Lord. As many of the speakers told stories of being mothers, I just cried out to the Lord. I realized it was time to be real with Him. All weekend, I prayed about Jason and I having a baby, and serving our Savior as a family. I came back refreshed and touched by Jesus. That Sunday afternoon, I was feeling a little different (and extremely tired), so I decided to take a pregnancy test. It was negative. But, I was determined not to be upset, and I just felt a peace come over me. That night in church, we talked about the highlights of our weekend at the conference. I said "One of the main things that God spoke to me this weekend was to stop underestimating Him because He is full of wonder and surprises."

So, I am still pumped up all week from my mountaintop experience, and Thursday morning, as I'm getting ready for work, I just happen to glance over in our garbage can at the pregnancy test that I took on Sunday, and what do I see? Two lines. Positive. (Remember, it was negative on Sunday!) So, I think, well that's weird, and I take another one. Positive. I am freaking out at this point. I rush to Lori's (at 7:00 in the morning), and I'm like, "Do you see this? Is this right?" Of course, she does and I race to work with a million thoughts in my mind. As soon as my doctor's office opens, I am on the phone asking them to squeeze me in. I hurry over, take a test. Positive. I go to Dr. Well's office, and he estimates that I am maybe 5 weeks or so, and that I'm due in January 2010! Well, I go back to work (floating, I think, or at least that's how I feel) and tell them I'm leaving for the day because I have to go to Brewton Alabama to find my precious husband, who I must say could have been knocked down by a feather upon the arrival of our happy news! Then I told my Daddy (who works with Jason), and he simply replied, "It's about time" but then when I told him our due date he said "That's next year!" Well, yeah, Daddy it doesn't happen overnight. (Uncle Jack, Lori's daddy who ALSO works at TR Miller later told me that Daddy called him over to his department, bursting at the seams with pride right after I left!) I raced home to tell my mother who proceeded to jump up and down and scream, and of course, Jason's parents were equally as elated. And there you have it...I'M PREGNANT!

Since our announcement, I have had so many special friends and family members tell me how much they were praying for us. A BIG THANK YOU! The Lord answers prayers, as I have always known, but this is just His latest bit of love and grace for our family. I truly feel that He honored our trust, patience, and obedience. As hard as it was, it was worth it. I GIVE HIM ALL THE GLORY. The Bible says He is the giver of all good gifts, and this would have to be the best one J and I could ever receive as a family.

Please continue to pray for our health. So far, I have been REALLY tired, but not sick at all. I would love for that to continue. Also, I am scheduled to go on a mission trip to Ecuador in June for the purpose of prayer walking. I feel that our Father called me to go, and He knew I would be pregnant all the time! I trust Him, and unless my doctor says I can't go, plans are unchanged. Please be in prayer for our health and safety for me and the baby, as well as our whole team, and that we would accomplish all we are supposed to. Pray for Jason and I, as well as my family. We have lots of changes to make (my mother is desperately trying to quit smoking) and we need supernatural strength, power, and wisdom.

I will end for now (I know you are all thinking you would wish I would write more...) My first ultrasound and meeting with my new doctor (he had better be as good as you say he is, Lori and Tara) is next Wednesday in Dothan. I look forward to posting more about the little Fore soon...:)

Easter

2009-04-11T11:23:00.000-07:00

Easter is one of my very favorite times of the year for many reasons. I have many sweet memories of waking up super early to see what the Easter Bunny brought. (My parents SPOILED me...) I always had baskets full of fun treats. A couple of times my birthday fell on Easter and those days were super special for me. I loved to get dressed up and go to church, then have a big, yummy lunch with all of my family. Those are memories that I will never forget.

Of course, Easter has a greater meaning that I have always been aware of, but it seems to me that as I get older and strive to grow closer to my Savior, Easter's message speaks to me in greater and greater volumes. I am very guilty of taking advantage of the cross, and somehow forgetting the significance of Christ's blood. Friday afternoon Jim Walker played something on the radio that moved me to tears. I was reminded of what my Jesus did for me. I urge you to listen to the clip. Click on this website http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzto6khRp7w Please view this link...it speaks for itself. I PROMISE you won't be sorry. Happy Easter. May the love of Christ and what He did for us overwhelm you this special weekend.

"comes in like a lamb, goes out like a lion" (or vice versa)

2009-03-29T11:56:00.000-07:00

That's what my mother has always said. March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb. Though we had some snow in the beginning, it's official...spring has sprung. This is one of my very favorite times of the year. I know we have had some horrific weather lately, and I am very thankful that we made it through with no losses, (as we DO live in a mobile home...) I am also thankful that we know the One who controls the storms. I love to look out behind my house over the big, green field and see the dark, heavy clouds as they roll in. There is usually lots of white, little tails of cotton (rabbits), and several baby deer playing or snacking close to the edge of the woods. I love to feel the cool breeze, and watch as the earth begins to drink the fat drops of water that the Lord provides. We actually have plans to move onto Brooklyn Road in the near future, and I told Jason that is one thing I will miss the most...the amazing view. I literally feel like I am looking straight into Heaven.

Of course, the thunder and lightning (or TORNADOES!!!) that usually follows the rain is not something that I enjoy; my "babies" are even worse. I woke up Thursday night to the sound of knocking on our bedroom door. As I moved my little "Happy" dog from my forehead, (he had snuck up and laid on my pillow...) I sat up, startled. There I found my cat sitting at the door, reaching under the crack with her paw trying to pull the door open! They say that after a while, animals begin to take on the characteristics of their owners, and all of mine are NUTSO just like their daddy! (Just kidding. I mean they really are nuts, but Jason's not...)

Well, big things are ahead for my family this month. Next weekend, is our beloved annual family reunion. It seems that the crowd gets less and less each year, which is kind of sad to me. My mother told me that before Lori and I were born, the family reunion used to be at my parents house (which my Daddy was born and raised in). My Daddy has 13 brothers and sisters! I can not imagine what a mess that was! Needless to say, our reunion will be cut short because some friends of ours are getting married (YAY BEN AND BRIDGETTE), and I will be serving at their reception. The next weekend, Ben will be home, which means lots of moving in! Also, the egg hunt at church, and EASTER! I love Easter because, like Bro. Barry says, without Easter, there is no message. I am so guilty of making light of the significance of the cross without even realizing it. I love that I have the chance to really focus on the awesomeness of Jesus' death and resurrection! And to remember He did it for me! Jack and his Aunt Dee Dee (ME) have a birthday on the 15th (tax day, I know, I know), and the following weekend (the 18th) is his birthday party, which I am also super excited about. (I will let Lori post about that.) It is also my Daddy's birthday, and our husbands are excited as well because the A-day game is the 18th and "televised this year, can you believe it?" (Blah, blah.) The last weekend of the month, me and some other ladies are going to Pensacola for a women's conference. I am anticipating this opportunity, and am yearning to strengthen relationships with my friends and my Jesus. Uncle Jay Jay (Jason) has a birthday the 29th of this month, and the next thing you know, April is gone!

By the way, thank you to each of you who have encouraged me through your kind words, and your prayers. This time of transition has been much more bearable thanks to you! I don't feel like where I am now is what the Lord has for me long term, but I 'm so thankful for new experiences, and for a job to help pay the bills! I just feel like something big is yet to come! We'll see...

THANKS TO JILL...

2009-03-13T19:06:00.000-07:00

Jason and I (and you) have been praying for the Lord's guidance and direction in our lives for the past month. Though we have been confused and discouraged at times, we were always sure that our Father had great things ahead. (His word says so, remember? Jeremiah 29:11...) Jason and I feel that His desire for us is to become debt free and financially stable, which is extremely hard to do without an income! MY greatest desire is to have a child, and be able to stay home with him (or her). The Lord has different plans, (for now; only He knows what is to come) and he knows what is best!

I guess I should start from the beginning. Some of you may know Jill Elmore. She is a brilliant nurse practitioner, who I had the opportunity to work with for almost a year and a half. (She is actually one of the main things I miss about my former job!) The first time I met Jill I thought no one could REALLY be that nice, but she is! She is one of the kindest, most sincere people I have ever met in my life. She helped me so much. She was always so patient and so caring, and we became close friends. When the spa closed, Jill fought for my job, and she is one reason I was able to stay as long as I did. She always encouraged me and stood beside me through everything, and I thank God for her and what she means to me. The day I lost my job, as I was leaving, Jill told me she would help me any way she could. An hour later, she lost her job too.

Do you know what she has been doing? Looking for a job. For me. NOT her. (She is pregnant, YAY, and is planning to wait until the baby is born...)

I received a call from Jill a couple of weeks ago, and she was talking with her friend, Stacey, who was interested in meeting with me regarding future employment. I had an interview Tuesday, and started my new job Wednesday. Jones Veterinary Hospital. How excited am I! I LOVE animals, and am really looking forward to this new phase in my life! I will be working reception mostly, and, though training has been a little difficult and challenging so far, I feel like this is an incredible opportunity, and I am so blessed to be there.

When Dr. Jones and his wife Stacey interviewed me, they told me they were looking forward to working with me. They told me I came highly recommended. Guess who. That's right, Jill.

So, Jill, if you are reading this, thank you. Thank you for everything. I can never, ever tell you how much you mean to me. You have always been on my team, and you encouraged me and supported me at times when I needed someone the most. Though we may not see each other for a while, you will not be forgotten. I am only a call away. I love you. Phillipians 1:3 "I thank my God upon every remembrance of you."

P.S. Thanks so much to all of you who have been praying for me and my family. I am honored to call you friends.

P. S. S. My mother hasn't smoked in 4 days! Please keep praying, as He hears our prayers and knows our needs. Something that has been on my mind EVERY day lately..."His strength is made perfect in our weakness..."

Waiting

2009-03-05T15:59:00.000-08:00

Still waiting...

Here it is. A month has gone by and still no job. I am still waiting patiently, and only this very morning did it strike that maybe I have been asking the wrong question. Maybe not, "What do you have for me in the future, Lord?", but maybe "What do you have for me to do today?" As hard as it is, I am still seeking Him, and I still have faith. He has promised to never leave nor forsake us, and His Word says He loves to give His children good gifts. In our Monday night Bible study, we are learning about God's love and His faithfulness. I am choosing to live by faith, not feelings.

"Experiencing God" (another small group study that our amazing pastor led) taught me many important lessons that I am able to lean on during the times of confusion and silence. One, was to "focus on the cross, not the circumstances." Also during the study, the story of the potter and the clay was discussed. You know what I'm talking about...the story in the Bible where we (Christians) are referred to as clay and our precious Savior is the Potter who holds us in His hands, molding us and forming us according to what pleases Him. But I never thought about a very important point in that story. In order for the Potter to make the clay into ANYTHING, the clay must remain in His hands. So that is my aim. I am trying diligently (and of course failing at times) to remain in His hands.

As some of you know, Jason and my Daddy (A.K.A. Uncle Tractor) just got back from Honduras. They went to build a church, and I was so wishing to be there with them! However, it gave my mother and I a chance to spend some (overdue) time together for some bonding and R & R. We had planned to go to Tennessee to see my aunt, but she had pneumonia. So, we headed to Destin. What an awesome time we had! Usually when I go to the beach, my days are planned and packed with fun events. This time, my mother and I had a beachfront room, and we spent our time lying in the bed with the door open, listening to the waves crash, and reading or napping the whole time. We got up only to eat, and not even every time for that! We even ordered room service a couple of times. The trip was just what we both needed! I love the beach so much, and as I looked out over the beautiful vastness of the ocean, I could not even grasp how anyone refuses to believe in God. How sad that they are missing out!

Well, enough for now. I hope to catch up on everyone's blog soon. Please keep praying for me and my family. My mother has been sick for a while, and she is having a hard time getting better. She is also trying to quit smoking. Please pray for strength, encouragement, and victory for her, and for her to lean on the Lord. His strength is made perfect in our weakness.

A Job Well Done...

2009-02-13T13:49:00.000-08:00

Well, I have been feeling the sting. I have never experienced this before. I truly feel that I gave my all, and did my very best in regards to former job. And I loved it! I understand the numbers and the logistics, but it just plain hurts that I lost my job! I have been battling satan and discouragement all week, trying to keep in mind who the Winner is. It seems as time passes, I become more angry and bitter. I suppose that's exactly how the enemy would have it, huh? Please pray for me, as I am continuing to struggle. I KNOW the Lord has plans for me, great plans for me, to give me hope and a future...I am just ready to find out what they are! Patience, right? It has never been my virtue. Maybe a new lesson to be learned...

Peace that surpasses all understanding...

2009-02-06T10:00:00.001-08:00

What a week it has been.

As some of you may know, I had a grandmother that I was extremely close to (my dad's mother, Minnie; she was Lori's granny, too). Granny lived with us until I was 6 or 7. I remember the day she moved out... I was DEVASTATED and I felt like I would never see her again. (Though she moved about 1 mile away right next to Lori's parents!) Lori and I stayed with her every day after school, and every summer. She would always make us snacks (like Rice Krispies and peanut butter) and sing us songs. (Among her favorites..."Swing Low, Sweet Chariot"...) She was the best company. Though she could not hear a thing, she could read lips REALLY well. Granny would always "listen" and just offer her shoulder to cry on. And she loved EVERYBODY. All of our many friends would always want to go visit her because she always joked and laughed with us all. We would go to her house and we literally had to jump up and down on her porch so she could feel that we were there! She also made up her own words for things. She was born with the ability to hear, but the nerves in her ears stopped working before we were born. And, she only had a fourth grade education, so she did her best. Still, she couldn't quite understand certain words. For example, she called pizza "prison pie" and the microwave a "macaroni oven." She was such a special, special lady. Granny passed away in 2004, and I miss her terribly, but I am so thankful the Lord blessed me with her.

I also had a great-grandmother that I was close to. She raised my mother, (well, until my Daddy decided to, as they were married when my mother was 14!) and lived in the Pleasant Home community. I have lots of warm memories of her, too. Every Sunday we would go to her house after church and have lunch with her. On holidays, all of my (HUGE) family would gather at her house and visit. She had a bridge below her house and all of us kids would walk to the bridge and throw rocks into the water while the grown-ups drank coffee and talked the day away. We would play football in her big yard, and have the best time. Grandmother Teel passed away in 2002 at 98 years old. She and Granny taught me many, many lessons including how to love, and put the Lord first. Grandmother Teel always talked about forgiveness and reconciliation, which brings me to my next subject.

My mother's mother, Louise.

I have never been close to my grandmother Louise. I don't have many memories of her, and the ones I do have are not exactly pleasant. I have always thought that my mother could be different in many ways had it not been for her own mother. Though, I do not have the specifics of everything that happened, I always knew that there were some terrible events that happened in my mother's family. I have always blamed my grandmother for several things, and frankly I have had a problem in forgiving her. My mother, however, praise God, has been able to overcome her past, and become who she is today. She has even formed a relationship with her mother, and has fully forgiven her for whatever may have happened. Forgiveness is a funny thing. I have TRIED and TRIED to forgive my grandmother, but it is absolutely one of the hardest things to do. Right when I think I am over it and I have forgiven her, I am suddenly overwhelmed with memories and blame, and the bitterness consumes me yet again. I mean I have struggled with this for YEARS...

Two weeks ago, my grandmother became very ill. My mama and I were in Dothan for a doctor's appointment, and we went by to see my grandmother in the hospital for a few minutes. Though I felt no attachment to her, I began to pray that she would not leave this earth until she was saved, and right with the Lord. Her condition became more and more serious, and this past Sunday, per my mother's request, I went to visit my grandmother again. As I saw her there gasping for breath, and clearly in pain, a wave of compassion washed over me. For the first time in my life, I was truly able to forgive her. I saw that despite everything, she was still my mother's mother, and my mother loved her, and God loved her too. I continued to pray for her, my mother, and the rest of my family. Monday afternoon she passed away. As selfish as this may sound, I am so thankful that I went to see her, and that the Lord helped me to forgive her. I am thankful that no matter what, He loves me, and He forgives me, too. I can't imagine how unlovable I am! It is easy to see other's mistakes, but not so easy to see our own. I have come to realize (though I have heard it all of my life) that I have no right not to forgive because where would I be without God's gracious forgiveness? As we have been working to mourn the death in our family, this week has been draining and stressful. Today I went into work business as usual. About 10:30, Dr. Gacha called me in his office, and explained to me that, like everything else, the economy has affected our business, and that they could no longer afford to keep me on the payroll. I lost my job today. Believe it or not, through everything I have experienced this week, I am filled with such a peace that clearly is only from God. I truly have a peace that surpasses all understanding, and am overwhelmed and awed at His amazing love. You know, as I mentioned in an earlier post, Jeremiah 29:11 is a verse that has been on my heart all year. ("I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you hope and a future.") I saw my cousin Lynn at the Corner Market Monday, and she told me that she had prayed for that verse to come alive for me. It certainly has. Thank you, Lord. I am trusting you.

Destin

2009-01-25T10:58:00.000-08:00

I hear that when you have children, (though I am SURE they are totally worth it) it becomes increasingly difficult to have time to develop stronger friendships, and just be spontaneous (like, say, having coffee with the girls at 10:00 at night...). Well, last Saturday was one of those rare chances (for Shonna and Lori, anyway.) We decided several weeks ago that we would all go to Destin and enjoy a fun night out. We (me, Jason, Shonna, Jamey, Lori and Ben) piled in Shonna's van (which we later discussed would have come in handy in high school, especially at Spring Break), and headed to Destin. First, we went to the outlets at San Destin, and did a little shopping. Of course, the boys and girls split up, as the boys cared nothing about perusing the purses at "Coach," and we don't care anything about surround sound. Then, we went to one of our FAVORITE restaurants. "Lousiana Lagniappe." Lori and Ben introduced us, and if you have never been, you can not even understand what you are missing. The food is mighty fine, and somehow tastes even better with the right company. After dinner, we sat around discussing old stories from high school and college, amazed that we all survived. Last, we went to the Destin Commons. The boys went to Bass Pro (surprise, surprise), and we went to Starbucks. (Shonna really took a chance, and ordered a diet coke! Just kidding, Shonna. But you can't beat a caramel latte'.) We walked to Books A Million, and then found a little table outside of Johnny Rockets. We sat and talked for literally hours. The boys were in and out because at times the conversation was about them! Reluctantly, at 10:30 or so we decided to leave. We had such a good time! I am very thankful that we have good Godly friends who we can have fun with, and I have a feeling there will be many more dinners in the future, kids and all!

We considered standing in the fountain for our picture, but decided this may be a better idea.

I think the boys were embarassed that we asked someone to take our picture. Jamey said you would think that we had never been to Destin before. But see Jamey, we would't have had this picture to remember our fun time!

QUIZ

2009-01-15T20:18:00.000-08:00

I found this on a friend of a friend's blog. (THANKS!) Since, I don't have kids (YET) and couldn't use the kid meter (we tried - with the pic. of our dog...), I had to find a fun quiz.

About our hubbys...

1.What is his name? Jason Philip Fore

2. Who eats more? He does, but I look like it!

3. Who said, "I love you" first? I can't EXACTLY remember; I think it was me after a long night of ridiculous stupidity.

4. Who is taller? He is, just a LITTLE.

6. Who is more sensitive? Me, definitely.

7. Who does the laundry? Both of us -but that is the thing we have problems with. I just dread it! He is so nice to help me but I usually end up with streaks on my clothes from reds and whites washed in hot water together...

8. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? He does. Well, Tip does. He sleeps on the right AND left side. Between Tip, Happy, and Maisy on a queen size bed (YEAH, QUEEN SIZE BED), Jason and I barely have a corner!

9. Who pays the bills? Well, in the literal sense, that would be me. But he is the one who brings home the bacon.

10. Who cooks more? I do. Not much lately. No time.

11. Who is more stubborn? JASON FORE

12. Who is the first to admit they are wrong? Jason Fore

13. Who has more siblings? He does; one for him, none for me.

14. Who wears the pants in the relationship? We are both strong willed- and we have our differences. I HAVE made a conscious effort to serve him, as the Bible says he is the head of the household; I am still working on that...

15. What do you like to do together? travel, mainly; also, just hanging out at home (or with Lori and Ben), and having fun together.

16. Who eats more sweets? We're tied but he LOVES white chocolate Reese Cups.

17. Guilty Pleasures? baseball cards for him scrapbooking for me.

18. How did you meet? We were best friends in the ninth grade. He liked me but I didn't know. Sweet story...as a joke I told him at school one day that I was having my tonsils taken out. (I was really just going out of town.) He got a puppy and brought it to the hospital as a gift for me! He really is sweet. I used to pick him up for church on Sunday mornings when we were 16, and after church, we would play Nintendo all afternoon, then go back to church at night. God put us together. He says he used to pray to the Lord that He(God) would make me his(Jason) wife. AAAWWW....

19. Who asked whom out first? Neither - it just sort of happened.

20. Who kissed who first? He kissed me.

21. Who proposed? He did - under a tree one night at our church.

22. His best features and qualities? He has so many. He is so handsome and sweet. And FUNNY...also, he is still my best friend. I thank God for him every day.

23. Tag you’re it. Who do you tag? LORI, SHONNA, GINGER, HEATHER F, MICHELLE

Cheese

2009-01-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

Well, Lori tells me I do not have enough pictures on my blog. The thought has occurred to me that some of you may not even realize that my blog is mine, because she is right; only a few pictures and they are very small. In my defense, remember, my computer is out of comission, and it's kind of hard to post new pics with no computer, scanner, or camera! And though most of these are not current, (remember I have lost 21 pounds!) here they are in all their glory! (HAHA) Plus, my friend Michelle (Bush) Royals informed me that I write WAY too much, and that she is not going to read it all. So here. Happy, Michelle?...

We are not sure exactly where this came from-we're thinking Jason Moore gave it to Lori, and I assume she made Jason Fore a copy. You know me and football, but this IS an awesome picture.
This was taken at Jordan Hare Stadium.

Tanner Tipler (Tip) Fore-what a monster! He has literally chewed my window sills to pieces. I have lost nice, expensive furniture because of him. Not to mention, lots of time, and many tears (mostly over shredded messes). Jason had always wanted a Red-Nose Pitt Bull, and I acquired him from a friend for a GOOD price for a surprise anniversary present. In the beginning, the dog and I had major problems with each other-we both thought we should be the boss. In the end, I won, and he has my heart. I love him so much as spoiled rotten as he is.

Lori and I at the river. I remember Tip was little, and we took him swimming for the first time...he HATED it.

Mama and Daddy at "The Buckboard."

(the same night)
Lori and I after a day in the sun at the river. One of our favorite family members was visiting, (Smith family reunion time- my husband could tell you how much fun that is, though as I am getting older I have come to appreciate it more) and we all went to dinner.

Big thing in the middle is the back of a bench. Lori set it up to automatically take our pic. This is at the Micky D's in St. Simons'. We were pretty impressed.

Our day trip to Savannah from St. Simon's. Lots of fun and beautiful.

This was written in the sand in St. Simon's Island in 2006. It was our first vacation with Lori and Ben. She had JUST found out she was pregnant with Jack. She didn't feel good the whole time, but we still had fun...

In St. Simon's Island after our "yummy"meal. We were sent to "the best place in town", and it was pretty terrible...

Jason and I heading to Honduras in Feb. 2007. It was his first time flying. What a life changing trip. I plan to blog about it later.

Jason and I and our "baby" Happy.

Our trip to the mountains, Dec. 26, 2007. We skipped the gift giving and took a trip instead. SO MUCH FUN. Here we are playing goofy golf. (My father-in-law, Mr. Kenny, my mother-in law, Mrs. Myra, my handsome hubby, Mama and Daddy.)

Christmas 2007-Mama, Mrs. Myra, and me at Dollywood.

Jack and Daddy, hence the name "Uncle Tractor".

These are two little boys that stole our heart. Though we don't get to spend as much time with them as we would like, we have been there for several firsts (first time bowling, first fishing trip, first ballgame...) Joseph is the oldest (and tallest). Jonathan is the youngest. They are sometimes a handful, as all boys are. We love them so much.

"One small step for man; one giant leap for mankind..."

Wow. That was lots of work (for Lori), and so time consuming. No wonder I don't post more pics!

2009

2009-01-04T17:14:00.000-08:00

I can not believe it is 2009. There are so many things that I thought I would have accomplished by now that seem to be even farther out of reach. I had this tidy little plan for my life wrapped in a bow...almost nothing has turned out the way I thought. And thank God, might I add. His ways are not our ways. I had planned to be married at 23 (check), finish school and become a teacher (well...), and have a kid by 25! Still here I am, working at a doctor's office, married to a wonderful man (almost six years), and no children. Though, I hope the latter changes soon, I am so happy and blessed! I am glad the Lord knows best, and has my best interest in mind. I am reminded of a song..."Lord, keep me in Your will so I won't be in Your way." That is my prayer but much easier said than done, right?

Several passages from the Bible have been on my mind with the coming of the new year. Jeremiah 29:11, which I mentioned previously, and also some verses from the book of Matthew, particularly where Jesus addresses worry. As I hold the title of champion in this department, I am comforted by these words. It speaks of how we should not be concerned with our future, and how the Lord takes care of the flowers and the birds, so how much more will He provide for His children. I am also reminded of the Lord's love and faithfulness. I am referring to where He tells us to ask, seek, and knock. (I have this taped to my mirror in my bathroom, as I need to see this every day.) The verse speaks about how we love to give good gifts to our children, so imagine how much more the Lord loves to give good gifts to His children; we just need to ask and keep on asking. Seek and keep on seeking. This is an area that I have trouble with...I pray but then I become impatient. Again, His time is not our time. I am constantly challenged to just "be still." That is one of my many goals this year...not to give up on the Lord. He never gives up on me...

I am already overwhelmed with our schedule! It seems we have the whole year planned!

January brings a trip to the Shakespeare Festival, which I LOVE. Jason, Lori, Ben, and I are going to see a play about the life of Bear Bryant. I must say my husband has never been so excited about going to the Shakespeare Festival. We both are really looking forward to it!

February means another trip to Honduras. Jason and I went on our first mission trip to Honduras in Feb. 2007. It changed our lives. We loved it, and hope to go somewhere every year. Last year, Jason went to Nicarauga, but I was teaching preschool at the time, and the trip fell during the last week of school. My Daddy and Uncle Jack (Lori's daddy) actually went, though, and I was so glad they had the opportunity to go together. It was the longest time Jason and I had been apart, but we survived. Then Lori and I went to Ecuador on a prayer walking mission trip in June. It was very challenging, but lots of fun. (We were there on my 5 year anniversary-that was hard...) I had hoped to go back to Honduras with Jason this year, but I think the Lord has called my Daddy to go again. I think I'll be staying home with my mom. We will probably go visit my Aunt Pam in Tennessee while the men are gone. Also, Ben and Lori are SCHEDULED to move in their house in Feb. Lots of work for us all...

I am planning a trip to the mountains in March. Jason, Ben, and Lori just don't know it yet...And Piper's 1st birthday! Also, my sweet Mama's birthday.

April showers bring May flowers, this year Easter, and also several special birthdays...Jack Benjamin's and mine...the same day I might add! He was supposed to be born on his Uncle Tractor's birthday (that would be my daddy-April 18). Instead he was born on mine! Lots of fun and partying, as Jason's birthday is ALSO in April, and so is Timmy's!

June 14 is my anniversary! Jason and I don't know what we will do, but we have both agreed that we are going to do something special this year. We went to a Christian marriage retreat in 2006, and LOVED it. (A Weekend to Remember sponsored by FamilyLife) Maybe something like that?... Also, VBS at Hopewell is the end of June. BUSY...

July 4! I am excited because, unless something changes, I should be off that whole week! YAY!
Also, Tara's birthday is at the end of July!

August 4 is my Special Day, the day I was adopted. It has always been sort of a second birthday...a big celebration. How lucky am I? (Mainly because God gave me such AWESOME parents...) Then, Lori's birthday. Also football season. Enough said.

September, October, November...more football. But this is actually my favorite time of the year. Getting ready for cold weather and holidays...I LOVE IT!

Then we are back to December. So many events...Ben's birthday, my parent's (42nd!) anniversary, and of course Christmas! INSANE how time flies. And we all know it will be here before we know it!

Well, I didn't mean to make the year whiz by! Just thought I would share a little of our craziness ahead. I am sure each of you have your own busy schedule. I am going to try to slow down , and instead of being caught up with all the busyness, live in the present and savor every moment. Quite a challenge, but I sometimes feel like I am always planning and never enjoying. This year is going to be different...

Well, I have written too much again. (That is why I never have time to post!) More later!

Christmas

2008-12-28T12:12:00.000-08:00

I hope each of you had a wonderful, beautiful Christmas! My family and I did. Though we can't pinpoint why, Jason and I agree that this Christmas was different and extra special. Of course, we got awesome gifts from each other and our family, but we all know that is not what Christmas is about. There seemed to be a sense of magical serenity, and I felt it not only in our family, but almost everywhere we went. We had lots of food, fun and family, and we made some really special memories this year. One of my favorite traditions happens every year on Christmas Eve. Our church always has a very meaningful, special ceremony that I so much look forward to. The church is filled with soft candlelight, and families come and go as they choose, and they are free to observe the Lord's Supper. My family and I always go. I LOVE IT! As we kneel at the altar, I am given the opportunity to focus on Christ and Christmas, and I am overcome by such a peace... I am overwhelmed by our precious Father's love for me, and am so thankful that He sent His Son. However, the quiet moment is truly only a moment, and then we're off to be consumed by the busyness. I must admit, I love that part of Christmas too. The hustle and bustle of the last minute gifts, dashing from family to family, and forcing myself to stay awake after my husband to put all of his goodies in his stocking! Christmas morning we always wake up early and go to my parents to see what "Santa" has brought. (He always comes as long as you believe!) Then we go to Jason's parents for breakfast. We open presents, and then usually go to Aunt Sandra's. This year, my parents and Jason's parents, as well as his brother came to my house at lunch. We had finger foods and watched "White Christmas." Then we went outside and played Tailgate Golf. (FUN) At dinner, we went to Aunt Sandra's, and had YUMMY food. We relaxed and played with my baby Jack, and then we all played Family Feud. (We missed Ben of course, but we are glad he feels up to going back to work!) Christmas is not over for me, as this weekend I am visiting with some of my favorite family members that I don't get to see a lot. (Many of you know Alan and my Aunt Pam...) As usual, I have really enjoyed visiting with them, and I always hate to see them go. (Bradley, I missed you, and can't wait to meet Erika and your beautiful baby girl.) So, to sum it up, I'll say again Christmas was/is amazing!

Now, here comes 2009. I can not believe it. "They" always told me that time passed more quickly as the years passed. How true it is! I, of course, have several resolutions that this year I intend to keep. I actually feel pretty good at the possibility of success, because I have actually already begun to take the necessary steps to achieve my goals. (Ex. 21 pounds since July...!)
My prayer is that this year be filled with health and happiness for my family and yours. I pray that my family grows closer together, and that we are able to serve the Lord with complete surrender, faith, and boldness, and that we make so many choices and memories that will impact the Kingdom. As simple as it is, one of my dreams is for my family to be well. I just think how beautiful it would be for my whole family to be able to go on a mission trip together. Who knows what the Lord has planned for us? I do know that He says he loves to give good gifts to His children, and that He works all things together for our good to glorify him. Jeremiah 29:11 has come to mean a lot to me over the years. A very special lady who has been a major influence in my life shared this verse with me at a time in my life when I was consumed by questions and confusion. Ever since then, I have faced many decisions about jobs and family, as well as the future. So many times I just want the Lord to write the answers in the sky. But, of course, that doesn't happen, which means I have to constantly seek his face. Well, with the promise of the new year peeking around the corner, I can't help but be excited. I just feel like the year to come will be full of hope and peace and trust and happiness and friendship. I pray that our families will take advantage of new opportunities and that we can all find meaning in purpose as we look to Jesus. Take care. Much love and happy New Year! Phillipians 1:3

P.S. HAHA Lori! I tricked you. You are always around and you ALWAYS know when I blog. I'm smarter! Just kidding. But I DID surprise you didn't I?

2008-12-21T12:08:00.000-08:00

I am aware. . .it has been a while. I know. Believe me, I have wanted to catch up but, again, broken computer and busy, busy days. I can't believe Christmas is almost here! I have felt down, discouraged, and defeated most of the month, and it does make sense that satan is working over time to steal the joy from this beautiful time. Yet, the past couple of days, the Lord's merciful grace is completely abundant, and my cup runneth over yet again.

It has been a fun weekend! Friday night was filled with friends and fun, as we had our Sunday School party at church. "Dirty Santa" brought me a much needed set of knives (thanks, April!) and my husband a tool set, which he chose to unwrap because he recognized our Christmas paper. (Hey, you never know with "Dirty Santa", right Lou?) Saturday morning was our Christmas party for all the kids at church. We had an awesome turnout, and I think everybody had a good time. Me and Brooke (Stokes/Clark) complement each other, and somehow we get things done. I thank the Lord for Godly friends and helpers. (Also, a big thanks to Misty and Michelle.) Saturday afternoon was shopping in Greenville with my sweet mother-in-law (FUN), then we went to dinner with Tara and Timmy. It's funny how children and changes make dinner with friends less often, but more appreciated. Saturday night, we went to Lori and Ben's. Let the record show I came prepared to blog last night, but the computer was occupied. But finally here I am! I have several people I need to respond to, (HEY KAREN!) and I intend to. Again, time is limited, and I have to fight Ben and Jason for the computer! (Recruiting is always in season, whether football is or not!)

Well, in the spirit of the season, I have a couple of thing I would like to share. The first is a story that my boss recently shared with me, (I am not sure who it is written by, but it is not me) and it could not be more appropriate, as it pertains to Christians (ME). (I know this is a lot of reading, but please stay with me. . .I think you will be glad you did.) The second regards weight loss, (received from a coworker) words that cause us to shudder with disgust and fear this time of year. I have been dedicated and committed, however I am taking a small time out until January. Read on. These are definitely rules to follow! (LOL)

I hope to post again soon, but we all know how that goes. I wish each of you a merry Christmas filled with Jesus and joy. Much love.

" Satan called a world wide conventionof demons. In his opening address he said:
"We can't keep Christians from going to church. We can't keep them from reading their Bibles, and knowing the truth. We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their Savior. Once they gain their connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken. So let them go to their churches; let them have their covered dish dinners, but steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Jesus Christ. This is what I want you to do", said the devil. "Distract them from gaining hold of their Savior and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day." "How shall we do this?" his demons shouted. "Keep them busy in the nonessentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds", he answered. "Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow. Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours, and the husbands to work 6 or 7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day so they can afford their empty lifestyles. Keep them from spending time with their children. As their families fragment, soon their homes will offer no escape from the pressures of work! Overstimulate their minds so they can not hear that still, small voice. Entice them to play the radio whenever they drive. . .to keep the TV, VCR, CDs and their PCs going constantly in their home, and see to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music constantly. This will jam their minds and break their union with Christ. Fill the coffee tables with magazines and newspapers. Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day. Invade their driving moments with billboards. Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, catalogs, sweepstakes and every kind of newsletter and promotional offerering free products, services, and false hopes. Keep skinny beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become dissatisfied with their wives. Keep their wives too tired to love their husbands at night. Give them headaches too! If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere. That will fragment their families quickly! Give them Santa Claus to distract them from teaching their children the real meaning of Christmas. Give them an Easter bunny so they won't even talk about His resurrection and power over sin and death. Even in their reactions, let them be excessive. Have them return from their recreation exhausted. Keep them too busy to go out in nature, and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies instead. Keep them busy, busy, busy! And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, leave with troubled consciences. Crowd their lives with so many good causes, they have no time to seek power from Jesus. Soon they will be working in their own strength sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause. It will work! It will work! It was quite a plan. The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere have little time fortheir God or their families, having no time to tell others about the power of Jesus to change lives."
I guess the question is has the devil been successful at his scheme? You be the judge! Does "busy" mean: Being Under Satan's Yoke

Holiday Eating Tips
1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the holiday spirit. in fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they are serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can and quickly. It's rare. You can not find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an eggnog-aholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think.

3. If something comes with gravy , use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they are made with skim or whole milk. If its skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a holiday party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you excercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you will need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10 pound plate of food, and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at the buffet table, like frosted cookies in the shape and size of a steering wheel, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a new pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple, Pumpkin, Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. i mean, have some standards.

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Re-read tips; start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner. Remember this motto to live by: "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways , chocolate in one hand, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

Alabama vs. Auburn

2008-11-27T14:09:00.000-08:00

Well, I hope everyone has had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Do we not all have SO much to be thankful for? I woke up early this morning with a particular verse on my mind. "Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good." Yes, he is. This is my very favorite time of the year. Beginning in September, through the end of the year, I always get this "boost" in my spirit. I love the beautiful colors of fall, and the brisk of the breeze. It seems I recognize the Lord's creation for what it is-majestic and amazing. Of course, with the holidays approaching, I get excited about the family and the food. Today was relaxing and peaceful, but, of course, we miss Ben. I hope the next two weeks pass quickly. Not to wish my life away, but we always have a lot of fun when Ben is here. Who would have thought that Lori and I would end up with two best friends, and we get to vacation together, and have holidays. . .I am so happy that soon they will be about 2 minutes away! Yes, how lucky for Ben and J that Lori and I took a chance with them. Just joking. . .though sometimes we forget, WE are the lucky ones. And there was no chance; I believe with all my heart that the Lord led us together. Just another thing to be thankful for.

Well, I have heard a rumor about a big game coming up. Me, I'm not much of a fan. Well, really let me explain. I have for a while now professed to be an Alabama fan. But, as some of you may know, I spent a LOT of time in Auburn, and even attended the University briefly. The truth is, I LOVE AUBURN! ( I can hear the loud gasps from here!) I mean I love everything about it! I have so many good memories from there, and I think the town is warm and beautiful. However, my first married football season, I was informed by 3 particular people (guess who) that since I did not care about football at all (not care about it. . . I didn't even understand it), I may as well pull for Alabama. (I will never forget one Iron Bowl spent at the Foreman's, I chose to wear my Auburn attire. Wow, what was I thinking? Ben told me I had to change shirts, or leave; and he WAS NOT kidding!) After LONG conversations about end zones and touchdowns, many angry afternoons, and pure ram-my-head-in-the-wall hours of boredom, I knew I was facing a lost cause. I soon gave in, as my Saturday nights were filled with misery, and ended in drastic despair, if all the yelling, throwing, and praying did not pull the Crimson Tide through. So, here I am. A self proclaimed "Alabama fan" who loves her old comfortable Auburn shirts. What can I say? Go Bama? . . .

My Job

2008-11-24T18:11:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody! I was so excited to hear from each of you. It's funny how the Lord sometimes uses our past to bless our present! I will not be able to blog as much as I would like because, as per my luck, my computer is broken! So, I am using Lori's. (Thanks, Lou.) I may be able to "blog" (the words are still funny and foreign to me. . .) more next week at work (I am off this week!!!!!), but we will see. (I can tell Lori is right. . . I am quickly becoming addicted. . .) I started working at Covington Medical Associates (Dr.'s Samuel and Maria Gacha) November 4 and it is BUSY. (Example: we saw over 200 people last week!) Dr. Gacha opened Covington Medical Spa October 2007, and I was invited to be the massage therapist. At the time, I was teaching preschool in the morning (which I LOVED), and doing massage therapy at the spa in the afternoon. In May, when school ended, I started full time at the spa. Unfortunately, due to many factors (a HUGE one being the economy), October 23, 2008, the spa was closed. Dr. Gacha asked me to stay on and, now my job consists of many things, namely following up with weight loss patients. They started a weight management program several months ago, and as I myself am in the middle of it, it is something I am very passionate about. Through diet, a little excercise, and a little help with appetite suppressants, I have lost 21 pounds since July! I have a long way to go, but it is definitely a step in the right direction. Well, once again, I have managed to say a lot about a little. (Call it hazards of the hobby, I guess.) Take care, and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!! Phillipians 1:3

My First Blog

2008-11-21T20:20:00.000-08:00

Well, I have decided to blog. Lori has finally talked me into it, so we'll see how it goes. My family consists of my husband Jason, and three wild ones, Tip (a red-nosed Pittbull who has chewed my furniture and walls to pieces), Happy (an adopted Malti-poo who is literally scared of everything from potato chips to plastic bags), and Maisy (our BEAUTIFUL but AWFUL cat who my husband says has knives on her feet instead of claws!) We are happy, but hope to one day give my sweet "nephew" (baby Jack Foreman) a little cousin to take care of. Some call us boring, but we LOVE our life. Of course the days are filled with work (that happens, as we are old now), but we look forward to our nights and weekends which is usually filled with the Foreman family (at least half of the month), occasionally the Bulger family(not near as often as we would like), football, and Rook. We also love to travel, and have gone on several mission trips to Honduras, Nicarauga, and Ecuador. We really look forward to Sundays, too. Our church (Hopewell) is really growing, and we are very excited. Worship is awesome, and we have a lot of couples our age. I can't wait to see what will happen in the future. O.K. . . 10:42. . . Lori is rushing me so she can help me set up everything. Hope to catch up with some old friends. . .